誰(shuí)說(shuō)的？”我別開(kāi)眼，不去看李澈。                                                                                                             李澈沒(méi)有開(kāi)口說(shuō)話(huà)，我也沒(méi)有，車(chē)子里面靜謐的就像黑暗一樣，唯一剩下的就是彼此之間的呼x1聲。                                                                                                             “哼……”                                                                                                             李澈的輕笑聲打破了這氛圍，他的聲音像是嘲諷一樣，聽(tīng)在我耳中覺(jué)得特別的刺耳，也許是在嘲笑我剛剛明明沒(méi)有人看見(jiàn)卻還要轉(zhuǎn)來(lái)臉，就像那個(gè)時(shí)候靳騏剛離開(kāi)的時(shí)候我g的哪些囧事一樣，他的笑聲，像是針扎一樣讓人特別的難堪。                                                                                                             我像是要證明自己一樣，從黑暗之中伸出手，攬住了李澈的脖頸，傾過(guò)了身，在這沒(méi)有一點(diǎn)光線(xiàn)的氛圍里面準(zhǔn)確地貼上了他的唇，描繪著他的唇形，然后有些遲疑地想要探入。                                                                                                             李澈的身t有些僵y，任由我動(dòng)作著。                                                                                                             他的味道很g凈，有著薄荷的清爽，香草的可人，還隱約帶著巧克力的濃郁。                                                                                                             我聽(tīng)到他的呼x1聲慢慢地變得濃重起來(lái)，然后反客為主，更加張狂地侵占我的一切。                                                                                                             “喀”的一聲，我聽(tīng)見(jiàn)他解開(kāi)了自己身上的安全帶扣，又一聲“喀”，他把我身上的安全帶扣也解開(kāi)了。                                                                                                             在我還來(lái)不及反應(yīng)的時(shí)候，他已經(jīng)貼了上來(lái)，壓得我有些喘不過(guò)起氣來(lái)。                                                                                                             皮質(zhì)的座椅，在身下發(fā)出一些輕微的聲響，有點(diǎn)不堪重負(fù)，就像是我的內(nèi)心一樣。                                                                                                             “凌墨，這是你b我的。”                                                                                                             李澈的聲音在我耳邊響起，帶了一點(diǎn)喑啞，一別我平常認(rèn)識(shí)的那個(gè)李澈，他的聲音里面帶著一種沖動(dòng)。                                                                                                             他的唇溫?zé)?，從額頭慢慢地親吻下去，細(xì)細(xì)碎碎的，落到唇上的時(shí)候，營(yíng)造出了一片火熱。                                                                                                             他的手緊緊地扣住我的腰，然后透過(guò)那短外套下的長(zhǎng)t恤，往著背部探去，t恤里面除了內(nèi)衣，空無(wú)一物。                                                                                                             李澈的手撫到了我的內(nèi)衣扣的位子，我也不知道他是怎么動(dòng)作的，等到我反應(yīng)過(guò)來(lái)的時(shí)候，我只覺(jué)得自己x衣帶子一松……                                                                                                             一聲尖銳的汽車(chē)?yán)嚷曉趯庫(kù)o的小區(qū)里面響起，劃破了那安逸的氛圍，也讓我瞬間清醒過(guò)來(lái)。                                                                                                             李澈的動(dòng)作也停止了，他左手用力地捶在玻璃上，發(fā)出“咚”的一聲悶響。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你哭什么，你哭什么！”                                                                                                             他的聲音里面帶著挫敗。                                                                                                             聽(tīng)到他的話(huà)，我撫上臉，才發(fā)現(xiàn)自己不知道在什么時(shí)候已經(jīng)淚流滿(mǎn)面了，連嘴里都嘗到了那苦澀的味道。                                                                                                             我到底在哭什么？                                                                                                             我自己也不知道，但是眼淚就止不住地往下掉著。                                                                                                             一輛豪華轎車(chē)，一個(gè)yu求不滿(mǎn)的男人還有一個(gè)不知道在哭些什么的nv人，想想還真覺(jué)得像是一種諷刺一樣。                                                                                                             李澈的呼x1從急促慢慢變到了平緩，然后他伸手開(kāi)了燈。                                                                                                             從觀后鏡里面，我能夠看到現(xiàn)在的自己有多狼狽，頭發(fā)凌亂不堪，衣衫不整，嘴唇微腫，最重要的還是紅著眼在那邊不停滴落淚，這模樣怎么看怎么像是一個(gè)遭遇了囗囗的悲慘nvx。                                                                                                             李澈慢慢地給我打理著，他的手指慢慢地?fù)嶂业拈L(zhǎng)卷發(fā)。                                                                                                             “別哭了，我又沒(méi)對(duì)你有實(shí)質(zhì)上的進(jìn)展，你什么都沒(méi)有失去，不是么？”李澈用手指扒拉著我的頭發(fā)，遇到打結(jié)的地方他耐心地用手指理順，“下一次把頭發(fā)拉直吧，卷發(fā)容易打結(jié)，不大好梳理。知道嗎？”                                                                                                             他叮嚀了一聲。                                                                                                             我有些凌亂地點(diǎn)著頭，其實(shí)我g本就不知道他在說(shuō)些什么，也不知道自己在應(yīng)承些什么。                                                                                                             “要不想發(fā)生這種事情，下一次直接給我一巴掌算了。”李澈嘆了一口氣，又道，“知道嗎？”                                                                                                             我又點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭。                                                                                                             李澈的手穿過(guò)我的外套，隔著t恤，在我背后m索了一陣之后才把內(nèi)衣扣子給我扣上。                                                                                                             “你呀！”                                                                                                             李澈的聲音里頭帶了點(diǎn)語(yǔ)重心長(zhǎng)，那長(zhǎng)長(zhǎng)的尾音像是嘆氣聲一樣。                                                                                                             李澈給我開(kāi)了車(chē)門(mén)，拉著我出了車(chē)。                                                                                                             “還不走，打算把剛剛沒(méi)做完的事情完成么？”李澈看著我問(wèn)著。                                                                                                             我搖頭，剛剛只是意外，清醒之后我當(dāng)然不希望再發(fā)生這種事情了，突然想想自己剛剛也太瘋狂了點(diǎn)，如果不是那一聲“笛鳴”，也許我就把自己的第一次給交代了出去，而且還是車(chē)震……                                                                                                             “現(xiàn)在倒是清醒了?！崩畛汉吡撕?，聲調(diào)之中似乎有些不滿(mǎn)，更多的是點(diǎn)氣氛，“那時(shí)間還抓的剛剛好?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            也不知道是不是我多想了，我總覺(jué)得李澈在說(shuō)這句話(huà)的時(shí)候除了無(wú)奈之中，更多的是咬牙切齒。                                                                                                             我上了樓，不敢開(kāi)窗去看李澈是不是還在樓下，因?yàn)閯倓偟氖虑樗坪踹€在腦海這種閃現(xiàn)一樣，讓我震撼不已，沒(méi)有想到自己有一天居然也會(huì)做出這種瘋狂的事情、                                                                                                             這件事情算是一件不能說(shuō)的秘密，對(duì)于林淼淼的也不能說(shuō)。                                                                                                             我在想，如果剛剛沒(méi)有那一聲“笛鳴”，我會(huì)不會(huì)真的清醒過(guò)來(lái)，還是由著事態(tài)發(fā)展？                                                                                                             我不清楚，也許會(huì)，也許不會(huì)，這個(gè)答案我自己也不清楚，如果真的做了之后會(huì)不會(huì)后悔，這種事情我自己也無(wú)法做出一個(gè)合理的解答，或者是會(huì)后悔的。                                                                                                             就像是李澈說(shuō)的那樣，那時(shí)間抓得剛剛好，剛剛好的讓我清醒過(guò)來(lái)，剛剛好讓事情不是變得一發(fā)不可收拾。                                                                                                             那個(gè)人，會(huì)是誰(shuí)呢？                                                                                                             哪天晚上，我又做了一個(gè)夢(mèng)，延續(xù)的是那未完的情節(jié)。                                                                                                             我和李澈在車(chē)上，就像是哪天晚上一樣，激情四溢，瘋狂無(wú)b，在李澈成功進(jìn)入到堡壘的時(shí)候，透過(guò)李澈的肩膀，我看到了在那昏暗之中隱藏著一輛車(chē)，車(chē)燈突然之間亮了起來(lái)，刺眼無(wú)b。                                                                                                             等到眼睛適應(yīng)了那光線(xiàn)之后，我發(fā)現(xiàn)坐在駕駛座上的人居然是靳騏。                                                                                                             他就這樣坐著，手搭在方向盤(pán)上，冷冷地看著我和李澈，就像是在看著陌生人一樣，那種眼神讓人心寒。                                                                                                             我哭著，用力地陲著身上的李澈，那力度卻像是蚍蜉撼樹(shù)一樣，一點(diǎn)都沒(méi)有改變現(xiàn)狀，而靳騏的車(chē)瞬間到了我的身邊。                                                                                                             在和我擦窗而過(guò)的時(shí)候，我聽(tīng)到他說(shuō)了一句話(huà)。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我不要你了。”他說(shuō)。                                                                                                             我想伸手?jǐn)r住他，但是我一伸出手，夢(mèng)突然之間就醒了。                                                                                                             在凌晨三點(diǎn)的時(shí)候，我開(kāi)始失眠，了無(wú)睡意。                                                                                                             如果夢(mèng)是反映人真實(shí)的想法的話(huà)，我想，我是這么希望的吧。                                                                                                             連著兩個(gè)夢(mèng)都見(jiàn)到靳騏的，我想，我和他應(yīng)該會(huì)遇見(jiàn)，但是我沒(méi)有想到，那見(jiàn)面會(huì)很快。                                                                                                             我之前收到一張請(qǐng)柬，是電臺(tái)里面一個(gè)不算很熟的主持人的。我至今都覺(jué)得有些疑惑，明明平常的時(shí)候都不常見(jiàn)到的兩個(gè)人，她怎么會(huì)送請(qǐng)柬給我呢，疑惑雖然疑惑，但是我還是包了個(gè)紅包，去參加婚禮了。                                                                                                             以前的時(shí)候還說(shuō)，紅包這玩意是有去有回的，但是其實(shí)并不是這樣的，很多時(shí)候送出去的東西還是收不回來(lái)的。                                                                                                             我倒是覺(jué)得無(wú)所謂，反正我也不靠紅包過(guò)活，就像是這個(gè)嫁入了豪門(mén)的主持人一樣，據(jù)說(shuō)她找的對(duì)象是富二代，家里面賊溜的有錢(qián)，光是砸在這婚禮上的錢(qián)就已經(jīng)上百萬(wàn)了，像是我的紅包，不過(guò)是一個(gè)形式主義而已。                                                                                                             反正我也只是打算過(guò)去吃一場(chǎng)而已，吃飽喝足，差不多就該回去了。                                                                                                             只是我沒(méi)有想到我會(huì)在婚禮上上遇上了熟人了，而還是一個(gè)多年不見(jiàn)的熟人。                                                                                                             靳騏似乎和多年之前沒(méi)有多少改變，一樣的進(jìn)口燈泡臉，x能優(yōu)異的讓人咋舌，我突然覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)同情今天婚禮上的新郎了，兩個(gè)人站在一起一b，完全不是一個(gè)檔次的。                                                                                                             你想，一個(gè)有點(diǎn)矮又有點(diǎn)胖的新郎找一個(gè)帥哥當(dāng)伴郎，這不是搶自己的風(fēng)頭么。                                                                                                             我遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)地瞧見(jiàn)了靳騏，心跳的有點(diǎn)快，但是還不至于到暈倒的地步，呼x1也b平常稍微快了一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)，但是生命指數(shù)還算是正常，絕對(duì)不會(huì)出現(xiàn)突然之間暈倒需要送去醫(yī)院搶救的畫(huà)面。                                                                                                             情緒指數(shù)也還算正常，至少?zèng)]有那種找茬地想要上前給這個(gè)男人一巴掌的沖動(dòng)。                                                                                                             有時(shí)候太過(guò)平靜，似乎是不大正常的，但是我相b較像是潑婦一樣沖過(guò)去把整個(gè)婚禮ga0砸的畫(huà)面，我覺(jué)得我還是b較現(xiàn)在這個(gè)樣子。                                                                                                             就這樣遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)地看著那個(gè)男人，看著他在出現(xiàn)在我面前，然后又和我完全無(wú)關(guān)。                                                                                                             我去了一趟洗手間，洗完手出來(lái)的時(shí)候在洗手間門(mén)口遇上了靳騏。                                                                                                             他就這么依靠在墻壁上，就像多年之前他依靠在nv生宿舍門(mén)口那水杉樹(shù)上一樣，悠閑而又愜意。                                                                                                             我朝他笑笑，然后準(zhǔn)備走開(kāi)。                                                                                                             “阿墨！”他叫住了我。                                                                                                             “有事？”我回頭，微笑地問(wèn)著。                                                                                                             如果是在多年之前，我覺(jué)得自己一定沒(méi)辦法這么平靜地和他對(duì)話(huà)，但是沒(méi)有想到多年之后，我倒是覺(jué)得有些介懷了，尤其是剛剛新浪在婚禮上介紹了他的伴郎是多么優(yōu)秀多么豪門(mén)，讓在場(chǎng)所有的單身nvx多努力之后，我反倒覺(jué)得平靜多了。                                                                                                             男人在很多時(shí)候都bnv人來(lái)的現(xiàn)實(shí)，所以在前途和ai情之間，絕大多數(shù)的男人都會(huì)選擇前途而不是ai情，有了前途之后ai情能夠收貨的更多，也能遇上更好的，這就是男人的現(xiàn)實(shí)。                                                                                                             想清楚了這一點(diǎn)，還有什么是不能接受的？                                                                                                             “我們很久都沒(méi)見(jiàn)了，你似乎變了很多?！苯U看著我，緩緩地說(shuō)著。                                                                                                             “恩，都那么多年了，當(dāng)然是要有點(diǎn)改變的。”                                                                                                             我點(diǎn)頭，像是一個(gè)老朋友一樣和靳騏在廁所外頭進(jìn)行攀談，一點(diǎn)也不在意這場(chǎng)合是不是不對(duì)的問(wèn)題。                                                                                                             “我都快三十了，要是再不改變，還有什么前景可言！”                                                                                                             “至少你的x還沒(méi)有下垂！”靳騏也笑了。                                                                                                             我笑容在一瞬間有點(diǎn)僵y，沒(méi)有想到他會(huì)突然之間冒出這么一句來(lái)，但是隨即地又回復(fù)了過(guò)來(lái)。                                                                                                             “真下流，小心被其他的nv人聽(tīng)見(jiàn)，到時(shí)候你可就完蛋了！”我笑說(shuō)，“今天還有不少媒t在呢，要是明天上了頭版頭條，也不知道會(huì)不會(huì)給我的臉打上馬賽克。”                                                                                                             靳騏也跟著我抿嘴輕笑。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你這些年來(lái)過(guò)的好么？”                                                                                                             我覺(jué)得舊情人之間最難堪的大概就是這一句了，過(guò)的好不好，對(duì)于這種前人來(lái)說(shuō)已經(jīng)是過(guò)去式了，也不適合在那么多多年之后還拿出來(lái)說(shuō)事，而且重點(diǎn)是說(shuō)了還特別沒(méi)意思。                                                                                                             “還不錯(cuò)?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我點(diǎn)頭，的確還不錯(cuò)的，沒(méi)有在他離開(kāi)之后肝腸寸斷，也沒(méi)有g(shù)a0出點(diǎn)自殺的名堂來(lái)，好吃好喝好工作，再也沒(méi)有b這個(gè)更好的了。                                                                                                             “好了，我不和你說(shuō)了，我還等著去t驗(yàn)富豪的酒席是不是特別的夸張呢，這種機(jī)會(huì)不是天天有的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我找了個(gè)理由，告別了靳騏。                                                                                                             我想我不該和他再呆在一起，因?yàn)槲抑廊绻€聚在一起的話(huà)，我想我還是會(huì)問(wèn)一個(gè)問(wèn)題，問(wèn)他多年之前為什么會(huì)不告而別，像是一個(gè)斤斤計(jì)較的nv人一樣，我一點(diǎn)也不喜歡這樣。                                                                                                             我不回頭，也不管靳騏現(xiàn)在有沒(méi)有再看著我，婚宴場(chǎng)所里面很熱鬧的，一派好吃好喝的，還有很多我渴望已久還叫不出來(lái)名字的食物。                                                                                                             我想，這些是b靳騏還要重要的存在。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”靳騏一如呢喃的聲音在我后頭響起，“你為什么不問(wèn)？”                                                                                                             作者有話(huà)要說(shuō)：啊，jiejie我要黑名單鳥(niǎo)……昨晚加班，么有時(shí)間寫(xiě)文的悲劇啊……                                                                                                             正文 第二十八章                                                                                                             我聽(tīng)見(jiàn)了靳騏的說(shuō)的話(huà)了，只是沒(méi)有想到他會(huì)主動(dòng)問(wèn)出口，我還以為他不會(huì)跟我說(shuō)這件事情，但是沒(méi)有想到他還主動(dòng)說(shuō)起了這件事情，難得他還記得。                                                                                                             我還以為連他自己都已經(jīng)忘記了這件事情。                                                                                                             還能問(wèn)什么，我也想不出來(lái)，如果是在很久以前，我想我還是有很多問(wèn)題要問(wèn)的，但是現(xiàn)在真的不想問(wèn)了，不想。                                                                                                             我擺了擺手，表示自己不想問(wèn)。                                                                                                             有什么事情是b較尷尬的？                                                                                                             我想大概就是和舊情人同桌喝喜酒了吧。                                                                                                             我想了想，從口袋里面m出了手機(jī)，發(fā)了一條短信給了李澈。                                                                                                             他一定是知道的，靳騏回來(lái)的他都能知道，怎么可能會(huì)不知道他會(huì)來(lái)參加這場(chǎng)婚宴，難怪之前他要我做好心理準(zhǔn)備。                                                                                                             很快的，李澈就回了我的短信，他的短信很簡(jiǎn)短，就像是他這個(gè)人的說(shuō)話(huà)風(fēng)格一樣，帶點(diǎn)淡淡的嘲諷意味。