我不知道要怎么開口，是該開口讓他滾蛋呢還是其他的。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”靳騏悠悠地開口。                                                                                                             “借完廁所了要是沒事就回去吧，我明天還要上班，而且，孤男寡nv的，容易留人詬病。”我擺擺手，擺出當(dāng)他純粹只是來借廁所的那樣。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我……”靳騏踟躕著，yu言又止之中又帶著點(diǎn)小心翼翼的姿態(tài)，這個(gè)樣子的靳騏還真的是我從來都沒有遇見過的。                                                                                                             我不知道在我沒有遇上靳騏之前他有沒有出現(xiàn)過這種姿態(tài)，也不知道在我之后他有沒有做出過這種姿態(tài)來，可在和我當(dāng)年那一段情的時(shí)候，他可絕對(duì)沒有擺出過這種姿態(tài)來的。                                                                                                             那個(gè)時(shí)候的他，腹黑地掌控著主導(dǎo)權(quán)，在他的手上我討不到一點(diǎn)好處。人家總說先告白的人處于一種不利的地位，這一點(diǎn)在我身上t現(xiàn)無疑，曾幾何時(shí)，咱也成了一個(gè)ai情教材，可惜就是反面的。                                                                                                             “還有什么想說的么？”                                                                                                             我抬頭看著靳騏，這樣吞吞吐吐的一點(diǎn)也不像他的個(gè)x，他不是一向都喜歡有話就說的么，怎么現(xiàn)在像是被貓咬掉了舌頭一樣，猶豫無b。                                                                                                             “怎么不像你當(dāng)年離開我的時(shí)候一樣g凈利索地說給我聽？”我問。                                                                                                             其實(shí)他們說的都沒有錯(cuò)，我還是很在意的。                                                                                                             我看著他，呼x1有點(diǎn)快，全身有點(diǎn)不可抑制的顫抖。這么多年，這個(gè)靳騏就像梗在我喉間的刺一樣，讓人徹夜難眠。                                                                                                             我終于還是問出了口，唯一讓自己感到欣慰的，大t上還算是平靜，沒有雙手叉腰茶壺狀地謾罵，也沒有化身咆哮教主在那邊大聲咆哮，這也算是我能夠做到的最大極限吧。                                                                                                             也虧的靳騏這么多年之后才出現(xiàn)，要是早些年，趕上姐沖動(dòng)而又偽憤青的時(shí)候，指不定就噴si他或者直接c起一塊板磚往他頭上招呼而去了。                                                                                                             算他時(shí)間挑的好??！                                                                                                             靳騏的表情在聽到我突然這么問的時(shí)候，還是有點(diǎn)震驚的，但是更多的是理所當(dāng)然。                                                                                                             “我還以為你永遠(yuǎn)都不會(huì)問出口了，阿墨……”靳騏聲音里面透著一點(diǎn)苦澀，“其實(shí)那個(gè)時(shí)候在我遇見你之前，我已經(jīng)辦好了簽證?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            靳騏站在我的面前背對(duì)著光線，在不算很明亮的節(jié)能下，我看不清楚他現(xiàn)在的表情，只能聽到他的聲音。                                                                                                             他的聲音有點(diǎn)含糊，但是還不至于不可聞的地步，我靜靜地聽著，或許他是編的，或許他用了文藝x的修辭手法對(duì)整個(gè)故事進(jìn)行了潤(rùn)se。                                                                                                             在很多時(shí)候沒有親身經(jīng)歷過的時(shí)候，也許我們會(huì)怒不可遏，會(huì)火冒三丈，會(huì)你所想象的種種，當(dāng)事實(shí)真正地剖開在你面前的時(shí)，反倒覺得有些淡定了，其實(shí)也就不過是那么一回事而已。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我從來都沒有想到會(huì)遇上你……”                                                                                                             靳騏長(zhǎng)嘆了一口氣，語調(diào)輕柔。                                                                                                             “后悔了么？”我問，很自然而然的。                                                                                                             “那么你呢，你后悔了么？”                                                                                                             靳騏問我。                                                                                                             后悔么？                                                                                                             我想還是有過的吧，自然可能是有后悔過的吧，被人甩的那么的難堪，不，連分手也是我最后一次才知道的，所有的一切像是笑話一場(chǎng)一樣，怎么可能沒有后悔過的。                                                                                                             只是這個(gè)問題突然覺得也并不是那么重要而已。                                                                                                             相顧無言，這詞還挺真實(shí)的，我和靳騏之間還真的沒有很多年前那樣有很多話要說的感覺了。                                                                                                             “算了，挺晚的了。我去睡了，你自己回去路上注意一點(diǎn)吧。”我起身，反正答案他都已經(jīng)給了，“走的時(shí)候記得幫我把門帶上。”                                                                                                             nv人啊，和男人的前途一b，只有靠邊站的份，什么都是要淡定的。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”                                                                                                             靳騏從身后抱住，他的下巴擱在我的肩膀上，硌的我有點(diǎn)疼，他的呼x1有點(diǎn)灼熱，噴在我的脖頸上，susu麻麻。                                                                                                             “我們重新開始好不好？”                                                                                                             重新開始，然后再給你一次不告而別的機(jī)會(huì)么？我想。                                                                                                             “我們重新開始吧！”                                                                                                             靳騏重復(fù)了一聲，手上的力度多加上了幾分，我覺得如果我沒有給他一個(gè)肯定的答復(fù)的話，也許他會(huì)直接這么摳si我算了。                                                                                                             我用力地掰開他的手，轉(zhuǎn)身直視他的眼睛，像是要把他此時(shí)此刻的樣子盡入眼底一樣。                                                                                                             “你不覺得，這句話說的太晚了一點(diǎn)么？”                                                                                                             我問。                                                                                                             那么多年過去了，如果他早些年回來，對(duì)我說這句話的時(shí)候，姐也許頭腦一熱，眼一發(fā)黑，也就這么從了也不一定。                                                                                                             可惜，他晚了，我也足夠清醒了，誰都回不去以前了。                                                                                                             門口傳來的按門鈴的聲音。                                                                                                             我想應(yīng)該是李澈來了，才十分鐘左右的時(shí)間，他居然就趕到了，估計(jì)是飛車來的吧。                                                                                                             我去開了門，李澈果然站在門外，額頭上有薄汗，他看了我和靳騏一眼。                                                                                                             “您一路飆過來的吧！”我損他。                                                                                                             “沒，”李澈搖頭，“也就不過七十碼而已?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            正文 第三十章                                                                                                             七十碼個(gè)妹呀，七十碼能夠在那么短的時(shí)間到我這里么，這種劣質(zhì)的謊言說出來誰能夠相信，你以為自己是舒馬赫么！                                                                                                             我不反駁，只是側(cè)過了身，讓李澈進(jìn)門。                                                                                                             李澈走進(jìn)了屋來。                                                                                                             “阿騏，我送你回去?！崩畛洪_口，伸手去拉靳騏。                                                                                                             李澈拉了拉靳騏的胳膊，靳騏不為所動(dòng)，好像一點(diǎn)都沒有覺察到李澈的動(dòng)作，那兩個(gè)人站在一起的感覺，該si的讓人覺得這兩兄弟好像有點(diǎn)什么一樣，怎么瞧都像是小受和小攻在鬧別扭。                                                                                                             “阿騏，你還想怎么樣？”                                                                                                             李澈見靳騏這個(gè)樣子，他也惱怒了，他冷著聲看著靳騏，然后用力地把他往著我的方向用力一推。                                                                                                             “這個(gè)nv人因?yàn)槟愕牟桓娑鴦e，你知道她怎么樣，以為自己是電視小說的悲慘nv主，ga0什么淋雨，蹲在麥當(dāng)勞哪里痛哭，整整六七年，她都等著你的回來，不敢和別的男人交往。你還想要她怎么樣，就因?yàn)槟慊貋?，然后?dāng)做什么事情都沒有，重新和你在一起？”                                                                                                             我從來都沒有見到過那樣的李澈，橫眉冷目對(duì)自家兄弟，言辭又很犀利哥，真爺們！                                                                                                             可是這爺們?yōu)槊盐业膰迨掠浀媚敲辞宄?，都已?jīng)那么多年過去了，還要往事重提，這種情況下，又面對(duì)當(dāng)事人，這種感覺真的是……                                                                                                             我扯了扯李澈的衣袖。                                                                                                             “我哪里不敢和別的男人交往了？”                                                                                                             我抗議，明明這幾年之中姐情感雖然沒有特別豐功偉業(yè)，但是也沒有怎么空窗吧，姐還是有交往過人的，不要用自己的主觀意識(shí)來形容我這幾年，順帶地把所有的過往都抹殺了，那群男人雖然是醬油男，但是至少還是存在過的。                                                                                                             “閉嘴！”                                                                                                             李澈瞪了我一眼，十足的惱羞成怒樣。                                                                                                             靳騏動(dòng)了動(dòng)，轉(zhuǎn)身看著李澈。                                                                                                             “你就那么希望我遠(yuǎn)離她，是么？”靳騏問，聲音也森冷了下來，“表哥！”                                                                                                             他重重地咬著“表哥”兩個(gè)字。                                                                                                             姐突然覺得鴨梨很大，因?yàn)榻阕寖尚值芊茨苛恕?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈用沉默以對(duì)，這種無聲的沉默讓姐覺得鴨梨更加大了，這三方對(duì)峙神馬的，又不是拍三國(guó)演義來個(gè)三分天下。                                                                                                             “那個(gè)，我先去睡了。你們兩個(gè)隨意，走的時(shí)候給我?guī)祥T！”                                                                                                             我抓了抓頭發(fā)，打算不爭(zhēng)氣地率先逃逸，直接閃身進(jìn)了自己的房間，利索地上鎖。如此劍拔弩張的情節(jié)，實(shí)在不適合吾等小白出場(chǎng)，一個(gè)不利索就會(huì)瞬間被秒。                                                                                                             我不知道這兩個(gè)人是什么時(shí)候離開的，等到我聽不到外面有半點(diǎn)聲響了之后，我才把房門給開了一條縫。                                                                                                             客廳里頭靜悄悄的，不知道誰b較細(xì)心，連燈也順帶地關(guān)上了，一室的黑暗，突然之間有點(diǎn)寂寞來襲的味道。                                                                                                             我回房趴在床上，以前的時(shí)候我一度認(rèn)為這個(gè)動(dòng)作能夠讓我的發(fā)育過甚的x給壓下去一點(diǎn)，有一段時(shí)間我天天用這個(gè)姿勢(shì)，直到有一天有人提出這樣壓下去會(huì)不會(huì)壓成荷包蛋的形狀的時(shí)候，我才停止了這種無意義的動(dòng)作。                                                                                                             這么趴著的時(shí)候總有一種x悶氣虛的感覺，果然是一個(gè)寂寞的夜晚。                                                                                                             大約半小時(shí)之后，李澈打了電話過來。                                                                                                             “睡了？”李澈低聲問著。                                                                                                             “睡了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我回答，心里面卻忍不住吐槽，明知道都已經(jīng)這么晚了還要打電話過來，這不是擾人清夢(mèng)么。                                                                                                             “那就好好睡吧，我掛電話了……”                                                                                                             “別……”我阻止李澈。                                                                                                             “有問題要問？”李澈像是我肚子里面的蛔蟲一樣，對(duì)我的一舉一動(dòng)似乎都了如指掌一樣。                                                                                                             我還真的是有問題要問的，可是在聽到他這么說的時(shí)候反倒覺得沒有什么可說了的。                                                                                                             “睡不著，陪我聊一會(huì)吧?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我說，在這么寂靜的夜晚，城市的夜晚除了車?guó)Q都沒有剩下什么，就連夏天也聽不到蟬鳴，都市化的讓人覺得寂寞。                                                                                                             “我還真不知道我的聲音還有催眠的功效?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈的聲音總是那么略帶不屑味道，如果在他現(xiàn)在在我面前的話，我想我一定會(huì)瞧見配合這聲音的表情一定是鄙視至極的，這也是電話的好處，看不到那張臉也少一分煩躁。                                                                                                             雖然李澈是這么說的，但是他還是沒有把電話給掛斷，就像以前很多個(gè)夜晚一樣，我不說話，他也不說話，就這樣等著時(shí)間慢慢而過。                                                                                                             “你今天g嘛那么說，好像把我說的有多癡情一樣，明明就不是這樣的?！蔽抑肛?zé)李澈，他還對(duì)我吼“閉嘴”，我說的也是實(shí)情。                                                                                                             “怎么的，難道還要我編你這幾年多姿多彩的生活，裙下之臣無數(shù)，風(fēng)光無限？”李澈說，“如果你覺得這么說有意義的話，那等改天我就對(duì)阿騏這么說好了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            為毛這個(gè)男人總是喜歡曲解自己的話，然后借機(jī)踩我兩腳抬高自己也好，這到底對(duì)他有神馬好處啊有神馬好處？                                                                                                             我遠(yuǎn)目，很想對(duì)這個(gè)男人說一長(zhǎng)串家鄉(xiāng)罵人的土話，保證他絕對(duì)會(huì)聽不懂。                                                                                                             這種模式每次都不少見，我也覺得自己挺賤的，明知道這個(gè)男人的嘴巴不饒人，但是每次還總會(huì)打電話給他，找罵。                                                                                                             對(duì)于這一點(diǎn)，姐有覺悟，賤骨頭作祟不解釋。                                                                                                             “你心愿了解了沒有？”李澈?jiǎn)栁摇?nbsp;                                                                                                            “什么心愿？”我問，扯了扯身上的被子伸手關(guān)了燈。                                                                                                             “阿騏都在你那呆了不少的時(shí)間了，估計(jì)你要問的也問了吧，b如說當(dāng)年為什么要一聲不吭地拋棄你一類的?！崩畛簩?duì)我的裝蒜嗤之以鼻。                                                                                                             有時(shí)候，我都要懷疑李澈哥是不是在我家裝了監(jiān)聽器材了，怎么就能夠那么了解呢。                                                                                                             “你早就知道靳騏會(huì)來找我的吧，老實(shí)交代，我的地址是不是你提供過的？”我問，這一點(diǎn)我早就覺得有點(diǎn)懷疑了，你想一個(gè)剛從國(guó)外回來不久的人怎么可能知道一切，絕對(duì)是有人通風(fēng)報(bào)信。                                                                                                             “你以為就我知道你住處呢？你是草履蟲來著吧？”                                                                                                             ……                                                                                                             這一次我已經(jīng)從腦容量少的可憐轉(zhuǎn)變成了單細(xì)胞生物呢？品階又再度下降了不少啊。                                                                                                             的確，知道我住處的人不少，像是依依，像是文雅，像是林淼淼……                                                                                                             但是這些nvx一般x都是和我一個(gè)鼻子通氣的，一般x有啥危險(xiǎn)x的事情也基本上都給我先排除了，而知道我住處的男x，除了李澈，還有就是給我找了這個(gè)住處的楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)了。                                                                                                             男人有時(shí)候也是不靠譜生物?。?nbsp;                                                                                                            “如果你和阿騏的事情解決掉了的話，你是不是該想想其他的事情了？”李澈見我許久不搭話，開口問道。                                                                                                             “什么？”                                                                                                             “r償?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我再度果斷地掐斷電話，扯過被子給自己蓋上，睡覺睡覺，只有睡覺最安全。