我翻了一個(gè)白眼。                                                                                                             李澈的車(chē)子停的不遠(yuǎn)，所以也很好早，上了車(chē)之后，他試圖要開(kāi)暖氣，卻是被我阻止了，這個(gè)時(shí)候要是開(kāi)暖氣，等到以后冬天的時(shí)候要怎么過(guò)呢。                                                                                                             “我今天想了很多的事情?！蔽易诟瘪{駛座上，一邊系著安全帶一邊慢慢悠悠地開(kāi)了口。                                                                                                             “突然之間開(kāi)竅了？”李澈見(jiàn)我系好了安全帶才開(kāi)了車(chē)，一邊開(kāi)一邊問(wèn)著。                                                                                                             “算是吧。”                                                                                                             真的不能指望這個(gè)男人能說(shuō)出點(diǎn)什么好聽(tīng)的啊，我很淡定，這么多年和他相處下來(lái)，難道我還不知道他的個(gè)x么，神馬都要淡定，神馬都是浮云。                                                                                                             “說(shuō)來(lái)聽(tīng)聽(tīng)。”李澈開(kāi)口。                                                                                                             “李澈，你為什么到現(xiàn)在才開(kāi)口對(duì)我示好？為什么不在靳騏回來(lái)之前？”我好奇地問(wèn)著。                                                                                                             “感情你想了半天就是在想這種毫無(wú)意義的事情？”李澈?jiǎn)栁?，輕笑了一聲、                                                                                                             “我就是想要知道而已?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我開(kāi)口，都那么多年下來(lái)了，他如果早早地開(kāi)口，也許我們之間的命運(yùn)不會(huì)像是現(xiàn)在這樣吧，或者什么都會(huì)改變，或者什么都會(huì)不變，但是關(guān)于這個(gè)問(wèn)題，我自己也不清楚。                                                                                                             “難道你想讓我趁虛而入，在你什么都ga0不清楚的情況下把你給吃了個(gè)一g二凈，吃了一個(gè)渣都不剩？”                                                                                                             李澈?jiǎn)枴?nbsp;                                                                                                            “你不是總覺(jué)得靳騏是你心底的一g刺么，那么我等你把這g刺從你心底拔出來(lái)之后再做出選擇，我可不想在以后的歲月里面聽(tīng)到你說(shuō)什么，如果當(dāng)年我不是這么選擇你的話(huà)就好了。”                                                                                                             我無(wú)語(yǔ)，他還真的是有夠自信的，誰(shuí)說(shuō)我一定是會(huì)選擇他的，我也一樣可以什么都不選的。                                                                                                             “那么，你就不覺(jué)得靳騏也是刺在你心底的一g刺么？”我認(rèn)認(rèn)真真地問(wèn)著，要知道我從來(lái)都沒(méi)有這么認(rèn)真過(guò)，他覺(jué)得靳騏是刺在我心頭的一g刺，但是那一g刺又何嘗沒(méi)有刺在他的心頭呢。                                                                                                             “如果你覺(jué)得是就是，如果你不覺(jué)得是，就不是?！崩畛撼聊艘粫?huì)之后才緩緩回答著。                                                                                                             而我，我覺(jué)得是。                                                                                                             我的手指劃過(guò)李澈的大腿，成功地感受到這個(gè)男人全身緊繃，就連他的聲音也繃的緊緊的。                                                                                                             “別玩火?！崩畛壕嫖摇?nbsp;                                                                                                            “你不是想要r償么，我不過(guò)是成全你而已?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我說(shuō)，姐吃素多年，今天想要吃一頓r了。                                                                                                             正文 第三十五章                                                                                                             當(dāng)用手指劃過(guò)李澈的大腿的時(shí)候，我突然覺(jué)得這么多年的臺(tái)言小說(shuō)不是白看的，至少挑逗的動(dòng)作一類(lèi)的，做起來(lái)的時(shí)候還真的挺駕輕就熟的，如果是在夏天的話(huà)，用穿著高跟鞋的腳去g更有誘惑力一點(diǎn)？                                                                                                             這些個(gè)動(dòng)作還真的有點(diǎn)壞nv人味道撒。                                                                                                             其實(shí)，我對(duì)于那一道膜的感覺(jué)不是很大，早晚都是有那么一遭的，就算不是人為，也有事故。                                                                                                             你想吧，有可能一直覺(jué)得自己還在的，突然有一天發(fā)現(xiàn)，它早就不在了，當(dāng)時(shí)除了去回憶很久以前可能導(dǎo)致不在的情況外，也沒(méi)有覺(jué)得有其他點(diǎn)啥了。                                                                                                             他陪了我那么久，也虧的一直是我，要是換成別的nv人，估計(jì)這么一個(gè)男人擺在身邊，該怎么樣早就怎么樣了吧。                                                                                                             “你還真想r償來(lái)著？”李澈看了我一眼，臉se繃的緊緊的。                                                                                                             嘖嘖，到現(xiàn)在這個(gè)時(shí)候才來(lái)說(shuō)這種事情，之前不是他最哈這點(diǎn)的么，怎么現(xiàn)在他倒是不哈了，變成我很哈了？                                                                                                             “你到底要不要？”                                                                                                             我問(wèn)，突然覺(jué)得自己說(shuō)這話(huà)的時(shí)候還多了點(diǎn)撒嬌的味道，透著點(diǎn)jq片里面nv人那yu求不滿(mǎn)，矯情造作的味道。                                                                                                             “……”                                                                                                             李澈咬了咬牙。                                                                                                             “要！”                                                                                                             我突然由生一種霸王y上弓的感覺(jué)，我是那霸王不是那姬。                                                                                                             雖然李澈的表情和聲音都像是被我b上絕路的良民一樣，但是腳下的油門(mén)踩的卻是非常的利索，這一路上飆的讓我抓著車(chē)門(mén)扶手處，有種想要喊停的沖動(dòng)的。                                                                                                             哥們，姐今天晚上真的不趕時(shí)間……                                                                                                             我原以為李澈會(huì)隨便找了個(gè)酒店一類(lèi)的，但是沒(méi)有想到，他居然會(huì)一路開(kāi)車(chē)回了自己的住處。                                                                                                             這是我第一次去李澈住的地方。                                                                                                             在這幾年里面，杭州的房?jī)r(jià)和吹了氣的皮球一樣往上漲著，我仔細(xì)計(jì)算一下，要是我租房b買(mǎi)房更加合算，一旦買(mǎi)了房，典型的房奴，這輩子都得在還貸上了。                                                                                                             李澈的房子臨江，走出小區(qū)，穿過(guò)一條馬路就已經(jīng)是在錢(qián)塘江附近了，再過(guò)去一點(diǎn)，就是杭州一法院。                                                                                                             房子三室兩廳，裝修的不算是特別華麗，就像李澈這個(gè)人一樣，不是很浮華的味道，冷se調(diào)，黑白配為主。                                                                                                             “你真想好了？”李澈站在我身后，把門(mén)給關(guān)上，“要是想走，自己出門(mén)打的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            原本還真的是沒(méi)有打算好的，但是他這么一出聲，覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)像是被他看扁的味道，這個(gè)時(shí)候出去，這個(gè)地方又這么的偏，除非是叫計(jì)程車(chē)，哪里還能夠見(jiàn)到計(jì)程車(chē)的影子。                                                                                                             “怎么，你怕了？”我回頭看著李澈，“我又沒(méi)讓你負(fù)責(zé)?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我越發(fā)地覺(jué)得自己有種b良為娼的感覺(jué)了。                                                                                                             李澈的表情y晴不定，那目光瞅的總覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)滲人，我別開(kāi)眼。                                                                                                             “你這有酒么？”                                                                                                             自古以來(lái)，這酒一向是萌物，成敗都在它，喝的剛剛好叫做助興，喝的過(guò)頭了那叫做酒后亂x，怎么說(shuō)都是師出有名。                                                                                                             姐需要它來(lái)壯膽。                                                                                                             李澈走進(jìn)廚房，一會(huì)之后拿了一瓶開(kāi)了的紅酒還有兩個(gè)高腳杯出來(lái)。                                                                                                             深紅se的yt在酒杯之中流轉(zhuǎn)，入口的時(shí)候有一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)的酸澀，回味的時(shí)候有一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)的甘甜。                                                                                                             我慢慢地喝了兩杯，這酒有時(shí)候還是一個(gè)很能安撫人心的存在，兩杯下肚，先是覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)冷，但是一會(huì)之后就覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)暖融融的，原本還覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)緊張，現(xiàn)在分外坦然，想想不過(guò)也就是活塞運(yùn)動(dòng)那么一回事么。                                                                                                             李澈也沒(méi)什么動(dòng)作，只是在那邊拿著一酒杯在那邊喝著酒，他背著燈而坐，忽明忽暗的，讓人看不真切他這個(gè)人。                                                                                                             也許，我從來(lái)都沒(méi)有想過(guò)要去看真切他這個(gè)人的。                                                                                                             最后，我把手上杯子里面的酒一飲而盡。                                                                                                             “我去洗澡?！蔽艺f(shuō)，然后無(wú)b堅(jiān)定地往著浴室方向而去。                                                                                                             這種事情，基本上都是一回生二回熟，當(dāng)然我也沒(méi)有指望有多熟，所以當(dāng)李澈洗完澡出來(lái)的時(shí)候，我基本上已經(jīng)躺床上了，連帶的那一條遮住了上面遮不住下面的浴巾也已經(jīng)解開(kāi)了，恍然由生一種像是古代被寵幸的妃子，沐浴完了之后就裹的像是一個(gè)粽子一樣，打包送上皇帝的龍床。                                                                                                             光是想著，就忍不住笑出了聲，                                                                                                             李澈從浴室走了出來(lái)，身上穿著白se的浴袍，一邊用毛巾擦著自己還滴著水的頭發(fā)一邊在床鋪的邊坐了下來(lái)。                                                                                                             看起來(lái)姐今天也要成為侍寢中的nv主了。                                                                                                             這個(gè)時(shí)候，應(yīng)該是要說(shuō)點(diǎn)什么b較好吧？我回想著在小言情節(jié)里面，這個(gè)時(shí)候應(yīng)該出現(xiàn)的臺(tái)詞。                                                                                                             唔……                                                                                                             似乎這個(gè)時(shí)候大阪都是沒(méi)有什么臺(tái)詞的，通常只有動(dòng)詞，或者是單音節(jié)的語(yǔ)氣詞。                                                                                                             李澈把毛巾一丟，所以地掀開(kāi)了被窩的一角。                                                                                                             “睡吧?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            他坦然地鉆進(jìn)了被窩，然后像是什么都沒(méi)有發(fā)生過(guò)一樣，只占據(jù)了一個(gè)角，背對(duì)著我睡著。                                                                                                             ……                                                                                                             “你該不會(huì)還是處吧？”                                                                                                             我震撼了一下，g據(jù)一貫?zāi)Ｊ侥嵌际侵苯訐渖蟻?lái)的哇，姐都已經(jīng)是光潔溜溜了，哪有像是現(xiàn)在蓋一條被子純聊天。                                                                                                             沒(méi)有想到這么多年過(guò)去了，這家伙和我一樣還是沒(méi)有點(diǎn)長(zhǎng)進(jìn)，但是nv人還好說(shuō)一點(diǎn)，男人到這個(gè)份上還這樣的話(huà)，那就真的悲劇了……                                                                                                             “凌墨?。?！”                                                                                                             李澈咬牙切齒，像是迅猛龍一樣撲了過(guò)來(lái)，他的喘氣的聲音有點(diǎn)重。                                                                                                             在我聽(tīng)起來(lái)有點(diǎn)像是惱羞成怒的味道。                                                                                                             我突然想起，其實(shí)沒(méi)有一個(gè)男人處的，第一次不是獻(xiàn)給左手，就是獻(xiàn)給右手，我應(yīng)該問(wèn)是左手b較親近還是右手b較親近。                                                                                                             但是如果真的說(shuō)了這句話(huà)，我想，他可能會(huì)真的毫不留情地掐si我。                                                                                                             很多時(shí)候，一個(gè)星星之火的一樣的動(dòng)作很快就能演變成為燎原之勢(shì)。                                                                                                             李澈拉著我的手去扯他身上的浴袍，底下一片空白，有的火熱。                                                                                                             當(dāng)李澈挺身進(jìn)來(lái)的時(shí)候，我覺(jué)得疼的慌，疼的是撕心裂肺的，就算之前的動(dòng)作再溫柔到這種重頭戲上的時(shí)候，還是于事無(wú)補(bǔ)。                                                                                                             所以說(shuō)，小說(shuō)里面的情節(jié)都是騙人的，第一次神馬的g本就不能t驗(yàn)到那所謂的快感，痛并快樂(lè)著這種g本不可能存在，除非是天賦異稟。                                                                                                             我一向平常而又平凡，所以在膨脹物進(jìn)來(lái)的時(shí)候，我恨不能一口咬si這個(gè)擁著著x器的男人，最好能夠一口讓他xiele然后出去。                                                                                                             李澈重重地撞擊著。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你別以為這樣就能丟下我。”                                                                                                             李澈喘著粗氣在我耳邊一遍又一遍地說(shuō)著。                                                                                                             我疼的齜牙咧嘴，一下一下地ch0u氣來(lái)緩和那疼痛，g本就沒(méi)有閑工夫去回答他的話(huà)，不管他現(xiàn)在在我耳邊說(shuō)什么都好，只要能趕緊地把這家事情做完。                                                                                                             “凌墨……凌墨……”                                                                                                             他一遍又一遍地在我的耳邊喊著我的名字，像是一個(gè)兇猛的病毒，而我這邊從來(lái)沒(méi)有什么防病毒程序，不堪一擊。                                                                                                             “你若是想要離開(kāi)我，這個(gè)念頭最好是不要指望了。”李澈咬著牙，帶著惱怒，“我到si也會(huì)和你糾纏在一起！”                                                                                                             他的動(dòng)作愈發(fā)的狠戾，我終于受不了。                                                                                                             “你能不能快點(diǎn)！”                                                                                                             我緊緊地扣著他的手臂，姐是在承受不住了，太疼了，速戰(zhàn)速?zèng)Q啊速戰(zhàn)速?zèng)Q……                                                                                                             當(dāng)一切結(jié)束的時(shí)候，我突然覺(jué)得很天堂，雖然還是很疼，但是相b較之下，總b一個(gè)男人壓在你身上還不停地坐著活塞運(yùn)動(dòng)要來(lái)的好的多。                                                                                                             經(jīng)歷過(guò)地獄，稍微改善一點(diǎn)之后就會(huì)視為天堂。                                                                                                             完事之后的李澈慵懶了點(diǎn)，原本緊繃的情緒也似乎放松了許多，李澈從身后抱著我，那手很有占有yu地橫過(guò)我的腰。                                                                                                             “你要再r一點(diǎn)也成，但是別過(guò)分了，現(xiàn)在剛剛好。”                                                                                                             李澈低語(yǔ)了一聲。                                                                                                             “我想睡了。”                                                                                                             我咕噥了一句，身t還是很疼，但是越清醒越覺(jué)得疼，睡著了之后就不覺(jué)得疼了。                                                                                                             “別想離開(kāi)我?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈抱緊了一些，像是告誡一樣重復(fù)了一句。                                                                                                             “別不曉事。”                                                                                                             我不應(yīng)聲，暫時(shí)我不會(huì)離開(kāi)他的。                                                                                                             我知道。                                                                                                             這些年來(lái)他對(duì)我也一直很好，我也知道，但是那種好，我還不了……                                                                                                             作者有話(huà)要說(shuō)：姐又紅河水浪打浪了……淚奔……