正文 第三十六章                                                                                                             早上醒來(lái)的時(shí)候有一瞬間我有點(diǎn)恍神，還以為自己在自己是房間里面，一直過(guò)了一會(huì)之后才反應(yīng)過(guò)來(lái)。                                                                                                             習(xí)慣x一個(gè)人的生活，醒來(lái)的時(shí)候還真的有點(diǎn)不大習(xí)慣的。                                                                                                             渾身酸疼的讓人更加不想動(dòng)了，像是整個(gè)人的骨頭被拆散過(guò)后再重組了一回一樣，原本就懶洋洋的不想起來(lái)，現(xiàn)在這種感覺(jué)更加強(qiáng)烈了。                                                                                                             床的另外一邊已經(jīng)空了下來(lái)，順手m過(guò)去，這溫度已經(jīng)冷了下來(lái)，這人走應(yīng)該有好一會(huì)了。                                                                                                             雙腿之間的痕跡似乎也已經(jīng)被清理過(guò)了，對(duì)此我沒(méi)有半點(diǎn)印象，也不知道他什么時(shí)候做的。                                                                                                             我坐起身，看到床頭柜上留著一串鑰匙，下面還壓著一張留言紙，還好留下的不是錢，不然還真的有一種被p的感覺(jué)。                                                                                                             我ch0u過(guò)那一張留言紙。                                                                                                             鑰匙放桌上了，要是出去別忘記帶上，廚房有吃的，吃過(guò)東西之后給我一個(gè)電話。                                                                                                             李澈的字寫(xiě)的很不錯(cuò)，絕對(duì)是有練過(guò)的那種，看上去和模板似的，一筆一劃有棱有角。                                                                                                             看著他這種叮囑，怎么看都覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)不大適應(yīng)，像是太過(guò)于親近了點(diǎn)，我覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)可怕。                                                                                                             我扯著身上的被子，坐起了身，后來(lái)又想起這里不是自己的家，昨天的衣服已經(jīng)換了下來(lái)，如果不出意料的話，估計(jì)還丟在那衣物籃里面。                                                                                                             我打開(kāi)了李澈的衣柜，從那掛著的衣櫥里面拿了一條白襯衫，男人和nv人本質(zhì)上還是差不多，nv人的衣柜里面永遠(yuǎn)少一件衣服，男人可以同樣款式同樣顏se的衣服有很多件，就像現(xiàn)在李澈那打開(kāi)的衣柜里面顯示的那樣，那白襯衫在我眼中看上去基本上都是一樣的。                                                                                                             我扯了李澈一件白襯衫套上，還順手簽羊，簽了他一條簇新簇新的ck內(nèi)k。                                                                                                             總不能讓我什么都不穿就這樣在屋子里面晃吧，那多不合適，雖然穿男人的內(nèi)k是有點(diǎn)怪異……                                                                                                             而且，翻了他的衣柜我才發(fā)現(xiàn)，這男人居然還有丁字k，果真是悶sao男人的典范。                                                                                                             床單上一片狼藉，上面還有著證明著所謂的貞潔那玩意，但是早就已經(jīng)g涸掉了，顏se也變成暗褐se，看起來(lái)特別的礙眼。                                                                                                             我把被子抱到一邊，把床單扯了出來(lái)。                                                                                                             其實(shí)看著那一塊地方，我也很憂郁，很想效仿一部小言里面的nv主一樣把那一塊給剪掉，眼不見(jiàn)為凈。但是這屋子是李澈的，剪刀放在哪里我不是很清楚，萬(wàn)一要是真的剪掉了之后他要我賠怎么辦，我最近節(jié)目都已經(jīng)停掉了，也不知道是不是停職留薪。                                                                                                             我抱著被單去了衛(wèi)生間，把床單往著里頭的洗衣機(jī)里面一丟，抓過(guò)一邊小架子上放著洗衣粉，g脆就是直接給洗了。                                                                                                             原本是打算先昨天換下來(lái)的衣服，但是看到那衣物籃里面空空蕩蕩的，也不知道李澈是把我的衣服給洗了還是給弄到哪里去了。                                                                                                             衛(wèi)生間的洗手臺(tái)上擺著新的牙刷，外頭的包裝盒還沒(méi)有拆掉，看起來(lái)像是為我做的準(zhǔn)備。                                                                                                             刷完牙洗完臉，我順著李澈留言上的話去廚房找吃的。                                                                                                             他煮了小米粥，就在電飯鍋里面保溫著，過(guò)了那么長(zhǎng)的時(shí)間，小米粥稍微有點(diǎn)稠。                                                                                                             我從櫥柜里面拿了一個(gè)碗盛了一碗，粥里面加了糖可以直接這么吃著，但是不算特別的甜膩。                                                                                                             才剛剛把碗給洗掉，手機(jī)鈴聲就已經(jīng)響了起來(lái)。                                                                                                             ch0u了兩張紙巾把手擦g，我從客廳的沙發(fā)上m到了自己的包，從里面m出了不停吵著的手機(jī)。                                                                                                             我原本還以為會(huì)是李澈打過(guò)來(lái)的電話，但是這一看來(lái)電顯示人居然是楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)，不是昨天晚上才剛吃過(guò)晚飯么，怎么現(xiàn)在又打電話過(guò)來(lái)給我了？                                                                                                             “喂，學(xué)長(zhǎng)？”我按下了通話鍵，招呼著。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我?guī)湍銌?wèn)過(guò)了，”楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)在電話那頭咋呼著，“聽(tīng)說(shuō)你節(jié)目停當(dāng)是上頭給的壓力。你是不是得罪了什么人？”                                                                                                             上頭給的壓力？                                                                                                             我做這檔子節(jié)目也不是一天兩天了，怎么可能會(huì)突然之間說(shuō)是得罪了人，就算是得罪人，要停早就停掉了，怎么可能還會(huì)在現(xiàn)在這個(gè)時(shí)候突然之間全部都出現(xiàn)了。                                                                                                             我直覺(jué)反應(yīng)就是和最近發(fā)生的一些事情有關(guān)，閉上眼，腦海中不由地出現(xiàn)靳騏的臉，居然覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)被自己剛剛的想法給驚嚇到，這件事情怎么可能會(huì)和他牽扯上關(guān)系。                                                                                                             “恩，我知道了。”                                                                                                             我應(yīng)著，也虧的楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)把這事上了心，立馬就幫我問(wèn)出了緣由來(lái)。                                                                                                             “聽(tīng)口氣看來(lái)，你的節(jié)目停擺還得有一陣子。”楊逸問(wèn)著，從電話里面聽(tīng)來(lái)他的聲音還為我?guī)Я它c(diǎn)隱憂，“阿墨，你打算怎么辦？”                                                                                                             我虛應(yīng)了幾聲，然后掛了學(xué)長(zhǎng)的電話。                                                                                                             其實(shí)我真的是不知道要怎么辦的，聽(tīng)楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)這語(yǔ)氣，看起來(lái)這等待的日子還是得延長(zhǎng)的，這種無(wú)期徒刑最讓人覺(jué)得痛苦了，可是除了等待，并沒(méi)有一個(gè)刑滿釋放的日子。                                                                                                             反正擺在我面前的路只有兩條，一是等待，二是辭職。                                                                                                             中午的時(shí)候，我出門了一趟，去了一趟電臺(tái)，現(xiàn)在手頭上的工作也不是很多，前一天把今天要錄音的節(jié)目已經(jīng)錄播好了，就算是現(xiàn)在過(guò)去也是錄播明天的節(jié)目。                                                                                                             以前在夏天的時(shí)候大家都是趕早著去電臺(tái)，然后在電臺(tái)里面c科打諢一直到晚上溫度下去了之后才回家，現(xiàn)在天氣一涼，基本上前一天會(huì)超額完成工作，為得第二天能夠睡個(gè)懶覺(jué)晚點(diǎn)去錄音室和直播間。                                                                                                             當(dāng)然穿的不可能是李澈襯衫和西裝k，要是真的穿了他的衣服還真的有點(diǎn)不l不類的感覺(jué)，穿的是我昨天來(lái)這的時(shí)候穿的那一套，李澈不知道什么時(shí)候給洗了，就大大方方地曬在yan臺(tái)上。                                                                                                             我一直認(rèn)為nv人的衣物，至少是貼身的衣物男人通常是不愿意去觸碰的，更別說(shuō)去洗了，這個(gè)男人卻是顛覆了我的認(rèn)知。                                                                                                             處理完一些事情回到李澈住處之前，我去自己住的地方拿了幾身?yè)Q洗衣服，總不能讓我一直穿他的衣服還有內(nèi)k吧，回去的時(shí)候，我順手在超市里面逛了一圈，買了點(diǎn)菜。                                                                                                             李澈廚房冰箱里面東西少的可憐，保鮮區(qū)里面只有**蛋，冷凍庫(kù)里面只有水餃一類的，果然很有獨(dú)居男人的范兒，估計(jì)一直以來(lái)吃的也都是外食。                                                                                                             當(dāng)然買菜其實(shí)不算是重點(diǎn)，重點(diǎn)是買了一條新的床單。                                                                                                             我不知道往常的李澈都是在什么時(shí)候回來(lái)的，但是今天回來(lái)的時(shí)候挺早，手上還拿著公文包。                                                                                                             我剛從廚房把湯給端出來(lái)，桌上擺了兩菜蔥油芋艿，金針菇小炒，端在手上的湯是鯽魚(yú)豆腐湯。我不知道李澈今晚回不回來(lái)吃飯，但是他不吃，我自己還得吃。                                                                                                             “回來(lái)了？”                                                                                                             我很自然很順口地問(wèn)著，就像是往常在家的時(shí)候面對(duì)回來(lái)的爸媽一樣。                                                                                                             李澈微微愣了愣，隨即地點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭。                                                                                                             “恩?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            他站在玄關(guān)處換鞋，然后又開(kāi)口問(wèn)著。                                                                                                             “你沒(méi)瞧見(jiàn)我給你留的紙條，怎么不給我打個(gè)電話？”                                                                                                             “忘記了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我回他，倒不是真的忘記，只是不知道要說(shuō)什么，難道要像是一個(gè)情人一樣打電話去用帶著抱怨的口吻說(shuō)“你昨晚好粗暴，我好難受”這種話？                                                                                                             打si我也說(shuō)不出口。                                                                                                             “你吃了沒(méi)？”我轉(zhuǎn)過(guò)話題，看著隨意把手上的公文包丟在沙發(fā)上，順手扯松了自己領(lǐng)帶的李澈。                                                                                                             李澈搖了搖頭，表示自己還沒(méi)吃。                                                                                                             “菜少了點(diǎn)，兩個(gè)人應(yīng)該夠吃了，要是不夠，再炒個(gè)小青菜？”我問(wèn)李澈。                                                                                                             “不用那么麻煩，夠了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈擺手，然后自動(dòng)自發(fā)地去廚房洗手兼盛飯。                                                                                                             “我也要一碗?！蔽以诤箢^補(bǔ)充，坐在那兒等著人給我服務(wù)。                                                                                                             李澈這大老爺們似乎吃的挺歡快的，我見(jiàn)他最后把那一碗湯喝下肚子，看著桌上那光潔溜溜的兩個(gè)盤子和一個(gè)湯碗，我突然覺(jué)得，我最后的時(shí)候還真的是應(yīng)該去炒一個(gè)青菜的。                                                                                                             “手藝好像沒(méi)生疏……”李澈咕噥了一句。                                                                                                             “那是自然，一技傍身么！”我得意，然后收拾了桌子把碗筷盆子端進(jìn)廚房。                                                                                                             “李澈，你把桌子擦一下?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我叮嚀。                                                                                                             “恩。”                                                                                                             李澈應(yīng)了一聲。                                                                                                             我也不去管李澈是不是真的有在擦桌子還是隨口應(yīng)我就算的，徑自洗著碗，然后被那橫里斜出的手臂嚇了一跳。                                                                                                             溫?zé)岬纳韙緊貼著我，在廚房里面做著這種動(dòng)作，有種熟悉的感覺(jué)。                                                                                                             “很久以前，我就在想，這樣抱著人會(huì)是怎么的一種感受……”李澈的下巴擱在我的肩膀上，他的手環(huán)抱住我的腰，“有點(diǎn)rr的，很溫暖……”“我怎么感覺(jué)像是r包子吧？”我聽(tīng)著他那形容，忍不住開(kāi)口吐槽，聽(tīng)他那形容，我怎么聽(tīng)怎么覺(jué)得像是剛剛出爐的熱包子。                                                                                                             李澈悶笑出聲，他的手慢慢地在我腰側(cè)游移著，然后慢慢地往上發(fā)展而去，最后握住了那柔軟。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我們登記結(jié)婚吧，然后生個(gè)孩子……”李澈開(kāi)口，聲音低啞，帶點(diǎn)誘惑的味道，“你看我們現(xiàn)在不是好好的么……”                                                                                                             我皺了皺眉。                                                                                                             “不……”我聽(tīng)見(jiàn)我說(shuō)。                                                                                                             作者有話要說(shuō)：別嫌棄r素啊，要知道我原本就打算用兩句我覺(jué)得很萌的話來(lái)概括的，我一直覺(jué)得那兩句話概括能力忒強(qiáng)了，給你們看看，那兩句話是神馬樣的話。                                                                                                             李澈：好小好熱好緊……                                                                                                             凌墨：好大好撐好疼……                                                                                                             對(duì)不起，姐yd了……                                                                                                             正文 第三十七章                                                                                                             “凌墨！”                                                                                                             李澈聲音有些不敢置信。                                                                                                             其實(shí)，我也有點(diǎn)不敢相信，我以一個(gè)剩nv之資拒絕了一個(gè)優(yōu)質(zhì)的渾身冒著油光的績(jī)優(yōu)gu，被誰(shuí)知道，估計(jì)都得直接一掌拍上來(lái)，看看我是不是糊涂到了極點(diǎn)。                                                                                                             “你想怎么著？”                                                                                                             他咬著我的耳垂，一手或輕或重地r0u著柔軟，一手則是慢慢下滑，穿過(guò)裙子，在大腿上輕撫之著，而后又在那邊緣地帶磨蹭著。                                                                                                             這男人……                                                                                                             “還覺(jué)得哪里不爽的，最好一次x說(shuō)出來(lái)給我聽(tīng)聽(tīng)……”                                                                                                             李澈的吻細(xì)細(xì)地落在我的脖子上，su麻的讓人覺(jué)得雙腿都有點(diǎn)發(fā)軟，小腹有點(diǎn)sao亂，讓人聯(lián)想起幾個(gè)小時(shí)前的熱夜，有點(diǎn)sao動(dòng)的感覺(jué)。                                                                                                             好吧，這是正常的反應(yīng)，就像是男人看毛片的時(shí)候還不是照常有反應(yīng)一樣，我覺(jué)得沒(méi)啥可恥的。                                                                                                             可恥的事情，這個(gè)男人說(shuō)的話讓我覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)一語(yǔ)雙關(guān)的味道，很意有所指。                                                                                                             “李澈，你發(fā)情呢？！”                                                                                                             我手上捏著盤子，突然很想直接頭也不回地照他腦門上砸過(guò)去，該不會(huì)食骨知髓了吧，能不能給我一個(gè)緩沖點(diǎn)，要是天天這樣，拼的不是命，而是腎啊，而且就算不是他的腎，也是我的腎。                                                                                                             “為什么不想嫁給我？”                                                                                                             李澈沒(méi)有理會(huì)我的抱怨，手上小動(dòng)作不斷，當(dāng)然的連b問(wèn)也不斷，雖然他的語(yǔ)氣尚屬平和，但是我就是知道這個(gè)小心眼的男人一定是生氣了，他就是這么一個(gè)記恨的人。                                                                                                             “你都27了，要生孩子最好在三十歲之前生，高齡產(chǎn)婦b較有危險(xiǎn)，你要真不想生不生也行咱們就不要小孩……”                                                                                                             李澈的吻一路往下，然后有些惡毒地在肩頭的位子上咬了一口。                                                                                                             我手一抖，手上的盤子差一點(diǎn)直接摔下去，堪堪地接住了之后，我也惱了，把碗筷盤子從水池里面端了上來(lái)，原本還打算擦g了之后再放入櫥柜的，但是現(xiàn)在看來(lái)，在和這個(gè)男人說(shuō)清楚之間別想要做其他的事情。                                                                                                             “李澈！”                                                                                                             我低吼，轉(zhuǎn)身面對(duì)著站在我身后的李澈，順帶思索著要怎么和他說(shuō)清楚，李澈也沒(méi)有其他的動(dòng)作，只是挑著眉頭看著我，似乎也在等著我開(kāi)口。                                                                                                             “你知道的，我們都已經(jīng)是成年人了，”我想了想之后，決定現(xiàn)實(shí)地開(kāi)口，“像是這種事情吧，都是你情我愿的，也不一定說(shuō)做了之后就得負(fù)責(zé)是不是，就算是負(fù)責(zé)吧，也不一定得結(jié)婚是不是？”“……”                                                                                                             我不敢再說(shuō)下去了，因?yàn)槲叶嗾f(shuō)一句，李澈的臉se越黑上一分，到后來(lái)的時(shí)候基本上都帶了點(diǎn)現(xiàn)磨墨汁味。                                                                                                             “你情我愿，恩？”                                                                                                             李澈靠近了幾分，雙手撐在我身側(cè)，把我控制在那一方小小的地兒，動(dòng)彈不得，掙脫不得。                                                                                                             “做了之后也不需要負(fù)責(zé)，恩？”                                                                                                             李澈那一張俊顏湊近了幾分，我不得不往后仰著，從他那蹦得緊緊的臉se還有那像是著了火的眼睛都讓我覺(jué)得害怕。                                                                                                             “凌墨你可真是夠深明大義的！”李澈冷哼。                                                                                                             深明大義這個(gè)詞似乎不應(yīng)該是在現(xiàn)在這種情況下的吧？我很想糾正李澈的用詞不當(dāng)，但是他現(xiàn)在的步步緊b讓我g本就沒(méi)有這個(gè)膽量說(shuō)出這句話。                                                                                                             “我是不是應(yīng)該感恩戴德，恩？”李澈臭著一張臉問(wèn)我。                                                                                                             其實(shí)你要真感激我，我也不反對(duì)，真的。                                                                                                             李澈的吻帶著怒氣鋪天蓋地而來(lái)，吻的讓人有點(diǎn)透不過(guò)氣。