話(huà)雖然是這么問(wèn)著，但是我基本上都已經(jīng)肯定了這個(gè)答案。                                                                                                             “你只是覺(jué)得難以接受而已?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            別說(shuō)是靳騏了，如果這種事情擱在我的身上我都覺(jué)得有些難以接受，總覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)耿耿于懷。                                                                                                             所以說(shuō)靳騏現(xiàn)在不見(jiàn)得對(duì)我有特別多的感情，但是他和李澈之間的兄弟情肯定是b我們這種兒nv情長(zhǎng)要堅(jiān)固的多了。                                                                                                             “你都已經(jīng)下了這么一個(gè)結(jié)論了，你還要我怎么說(shuō)？”                                                                                                             靳騏看著我，神情懊惱，瞅著糾結(jié)無(wú)b。                                                                                                             “如果你這么認(rèn)為，那就是這樣吧！”                                                                                                             靳騏冷冷地說(shuō)出這一句。                                                                                                             聽(tīng)到靳騏這么說(shuō)的時(shí)候，我突然覺(jué)得有種很難以言喻的感覺(jué)，真不知道是該為自己這么多年來(lái)未忘的情感而哀悼還是別的什么。                                                                                                             我未放下的是過(guò)往，而他沒(méi)放下的……卻只是偏執(zhí)而已。                                                                                                             如果在這個(gè)時(shí)候他能夠在多說(shuō)一點(diǎn)，再多辯解一點(diǎn)，或者我會(huì)……我會(huì)……                                                                                                             我也不知道我會(huì)怎么樣，也不知道會(huì)改變些什么，或者，多說(shuō)什么多做什么都已經(jīng)是沒(méi)有用了。                                                                                                             靳騏坐了沒(méi)一會(huì)就走了，我也不攔他，反正該來(lái)的總是會(huì)來(lái)，該走的總是要走的，強(qiáng)求不來(lái)，就算是強(qiáng)求也強(qiáng)求不到。                                                                                                             我維持著最后的動(dòng)作不動(dòng)，蜷縮在沙發(fā)上。                                                                                                             不得不感嘆李澈的家具選的不錯(cuò)，在沙發(fā)上窩那么久也沒(méi)有覺(jué)得難受，果然所有的東西都是燒錢(qián)的才是最好。                                                                                                             李澈回來(lái)的時(shí)候，我也還蜷在沙發(fā)上，宅nv逛街總是覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)痛苦的，會(huì)手腳發(fā)軟，即便是坐下來(lái)之后也會(huì)覺(jué)得腿不停地發(fā)抖。                                                                                                             “在呢？”                                                                                                             李澈看了我一眼。                                                                                                             “今天不做飯？”他問(wèn)，聲音里頭一派理所當(dāng)然。                                                                                                             “我又不是煮飯婆，我的功效難道就是煮飯么？”                                                                                                             我反問(wèn)，這感覺(jué)真讓人感覺(jué)到不爽啊，一回來(lái)就問(wèn)我做不做飯，我又不是那h臉婆，g嘛總是給他做飯。                                                                                                             “恩，不煮飯的，你想光暖床？”                                                                                                             李澈?jiǎn)栁?，一臉明擺著的神情丟過(guò)來(lái)。                                                                                                             “……”我杜絕和他說(shuō)話(huà)，他氣si人很有本事，越和他說(shuō)話(huà)，越能氣si個(gè)人。                                                                                                             “不想做就算了，等會(huì)出去吃。我去換件衣服……”                                                                                                             李澈有時(shí)候還是一個(gè)b較會(huì)做人的，還懂得改變?cè)掝}，但是對(duì)于他某一個(gè)程度上的潔癖，我還真的是不能認(rèn)同的。                                                                                                             “你現(xiàn)在換了吧，等會(huì)吃完回來(lái)不是還要洗個(gè)澡么，你那個(gè)時(shí)候就不換了。你也真不嫌麻煩。”                                                                                                             我說(shuō)，他倒是覺(jué)得輕松了，但是這洗衣服的人可都是我??！這不是變相地加重了我的負(fù)擔(dān)么，這男人忒讓人覺(jué)得郁悶了。                                                                                                             “要想不g活也行啊，等你肚子大起來(lái)的時(shí)候，足夠你清閑上一兩年的?！崩畛鹤旖俏⑽⒁籧h0u，笑的別有深意。                                                                                                             我一抖，感覺(jué)這菊花一緊。                                                                                                             “算了算了，你還是去換吧，我洗！我洗還不行么！”我捂臉，覺(jué)得自己真的很沒(méi)有志氣。                                                                                                             但是肚子和衣服b起來(lái)，還是肚子b較好一點(diǎn)，我可不想挺著一個(gè)肚子挺上好幾個(gè)月。                                                                                                             李澈進(jìn)了房間了，一會(huì)之后他的聲音從房間里面?zhèn)鞒鰜?lái)。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你給我做飯去！”                                                                                                             ……                                                                                                             這又是怎么了？剛剛不是還說(shuō)好是要去外面吃的么，怎么現(xiàn)在又要我做飯了？而且現(xiàn)在這聲音聽(tīng)上去，似乎火氣挺大的。                                                                                                             我扭頭去看，這小子又在鬧神馬別扭喲。                                                                                                             李澈站在門(mén)口，臉se奇臭無(wú)b。                                                                                                             “我餓了，給我做飯。”                                                                                                             李澈站在房間門(mén)口，特別大爺?shù)亟淮?nbsp;                                                                                                            這誰(shuí)欠他了呀這是！                                                                                                             我郁悶地從沙發(fā)上爬起來(lái)。                                                                                                             “哦……”我泱泱地應(yīng)著。                                                                                                             第四十章                                                                                                             李澈的火氣來(lái)的很沒(méi)由來(lái)，在廚房摘菜的時(shí)候我才恍然醒悟到這一點(diǎn)，但是為什么我還要聽(tīng)話(huà)的在這廚房里面摘菜？                                                                                                             中國(guó)幾千年以來(lái)大多數(shù)的人都是奴才，但是現(xiàn)在都已經(jīng)改革開(kāi)放很多年了，就連社會(huì)都已經(jīng)開(kāi)始吹起了和諧的號(hào)角了，我居然還一骨子的奴x。                                                                                                             凌墨，你果然是沒(méi)救了！                                                                                                             我嚴(yán)重地唾棄自己。                                                                                                             李澈一直很大爺。                                                                                                             他很大爺?shù)匕盐亿s去廚房做飯，然后就很大爺?shù)卦诳蛷d坐著，擺著很大爺?shù)淖藨B(tài)，膝蓋上還擺著一臺(tái)筆記本電腦，就連神情也很大爺。                                                                                                             大爺之中的典范，大爺之中的經(jīng)典，也許哪一天就會(huì)成為二爺了。唔，你問(wèn)我二爺是神馬？有二n就二爺。                                                                                                             折騰了半天之后，我把菜端到了客廳，然后開(kāi)口喊他吃飯。                                                                                                             他不咸不淡地應(yīng)了一聲，那聲音就像是從鼻孔里面哼出來(lái)的一樣，帶著點(diǎn)鼻音，聽(tīng)上去可讓人覺(jué)得郁悶不已。                                                                                                             我覺(jué)得我果然是在自己折騰自己。                                                                                                             李澈應(yīng)了半天，但是好一會(huì)也不見(jiàn)他有什么反應(yīng)，我都已經(jīng)把飯盛出來(lái)端到了餐桌上，大爺他還是沒(méi)有半點(diǎn)的動(dòng)靜、                                                                                                             “你剛剛不是嚷著餓么，你剛剛不是催著我給你做飯么，怎么現(xiàn)在倒是一動(dòng)不動(dòng)的了？”我惱了，朝著李澈嚷嚷著，這男人果然指使別人很有一套，難不成還指望著我三催四請(qǐng)供著他，喂給他？                                                                                                             我還不至于奴x到這種地步吧？                                                                                                             “怎么，這樣就覺(jué)得不耐煩了么？”李澈把黏在電腦屏幕上的視線(xiàn)挪開(kāi)了一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)，勻到了我身上。                                                                                                             “你今天在矯情什么？”                                                                                                             我問(wèn)著李澈，平常的時(shí)候雖然一直都知道這個(gè)男人難伺候，但是今天似乎特別的難伺候，難伺候到家的感覺(jué)了。                                                                                                             真不知道這家伙今天到底在ga0什么鬼，要知道我今天面對(duì)靳騏都沒(méi)有多說(shuō)什么了，他還給我擺著一張臉se看，要知道我也有脾氣的哇，可不是隨隨便便給人捏捏都可以當(dāng)做沒(méi)有什么事情發(fā)生一樣。                                                                                                             “凌墨，這句話(huà)應(yīng)該我來(lái)問(wèn)你才對(duì)?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈把筆記本往著茶幾上一放，寒著一張的臉問(wèn)著我。                                                                                                             “你又在鬧什么別扭，我對(duì)你還不夠好？”                                                                                                             我？                                                                                                             我又怎么了，他要我去做飯，我不爽還不是乖乖地去做了，我從頭到尾都沒(méi)有招惹他，也沒(méi)有yan奉y違，他還有什么好指責(zé)的？                                                                                                             頂多就是讓他先吃飯?jiān)贀Q一身衣服唄，難道這個(gè)也不行么？                                                                                                             我m著鼻子，暗想著這男人是不是真的潔癖到這種完全不可理喻的程度，這也實(shí)在是太震撼到不可讓人相信的程度了。                                                                                                             “要不，咱先吃飯？肚子餓的時(shí)候脾氣最容易壞了……”                                                                                                             這個(gè)我b較有經(jīng)驗(yàn)，這就像是起床的時(shí)候有起床氣一樣，完全不可避免，要是再這么接著餓下去，估計(jì)我們兩個(gè)等會(huì)會(huì)摔鍋砸碗，直接上演全武行了。                                                                                                             我都已經(jīng)先服軟了，他也就順著這個(gè)臺(tái)階下了吧，別再和我鬧騰。                                                                                                             但是很顯然的，李澈沒(méi)有想要和我罷休的念頭，他就打算直接和我g下去，不管是在言論上的還是在實(shí)際行動(dòng)上的，他都沒(méi)有打算放過(guò)我。                                                                                                             這個(gè)男人y晴不定！                                                                                                             李澈這男人讓我想起了當(dāng)年的看清穿小說(shuō)曾經(jīng)萌的天昏地暗的清朝男人四四，那個(gè)時(shí)候康熙多少兒子，我光光看上的就這個(gè)男人，那個(gè)時(shí)候覺(jué)得四四那冰冷帥哥型號(hào)酷的特別的有魅力，但是自從和李澈相處了之后，我覺(jué)得身邊有個(gè)冷酷的男人還真的是一件挺為難的事情。                                                                                                             這男人的心思你別猜啊你別猜。人人都說(shuō)nv人心海底針，其實(shí)說(shuō)這句話(huà)的時(shí)候多半都是從男人的嘴巴里說(shuō)出來(lái)的，其實(shí)男人的心思又何嘗不是一樣的呢。                                                                                                             不管是猜對(duì)還是猜錯(cuò)，反正都是沒(méi)有什么好事的。                                                                                                             所以現(xiàn)在我特別能夠理解康熙當(dāng)年說(shuō)四四y晴不定特別的正確，看李澈就能夠看出一二來(lái)，這個(gè)男人把反復(fù)無(wú)常演繹的淋漓盡致，之前還好端端的，這一下子又是起了變化了，我都不知道這男人到底是想要怎么樣了。                                                                                                             所以好不容易見(jiàn)他肯動(dòng)手吃晚飯，我覺(jué)得特別的感動(dòng)，因?yàn)槟銓?duì)這種男人真的要求不能忒高，你要求越高，越會(huì)失望。                                                                                                             好不容易把晚飯扒拉完，李大爺他表情還是沒(méi)有舒緩過(guò)來(lái)，依舊是臭著一張臉，在那邊玩著他的電腦，上面全部都是曲線(xiàn)圖，即便智商不高如我也能夠看出個(gè)所以然來(lái)，這個(gè)男人居然也會(huì)玩玩炒gu。                                                                                                             我端了一杯茶，坐一邊，他這種姿態(tài)我也不敢像是昨天一樣把電視給開(kāi)了在那邊看新聞看我的八點(diǎn)檔，我沒(méi)膽，真的！                                                                                                             “你炒gu？”靜默了一陣之后，我開(kāi)始沒(méi)話(huà)找話(huà)，因?yàn)閮蓚€(gè)人都沉默在那里，整個(gè)房子都靜悄悄的感覺(jué)特別的空蕩蕩，我可不習(xí)慣這種氛圍。                                                                                                             “恩?！崩畛禾搼?yīng)了一聲，一會(huì)之后才又緩緩地問(wèn)了一聲，“怎么，你也有興趣？”                                                                                                             我搖頭，這種興趣可不是我這種小職員應(yīng)該有的，沒(méi)聽(tīng)見(jiàn)別人都在那邊喊“gu市有風(fēng)險(xiǎn)，入行虛謹(jǐn)慎”，那什么情場(chǎng)失意賭場(chǎng)得意這種好事從來(lái)不在我身上發(fā)生，不然我早成了億萬(wàn)富翁了，我們這種人還是指望著過(guò)過(guò)自己的小日子就好了，不需要有太大的出息。                                                                                                             話(huà)題結(jié)束，我們兩個(gè)又再度陷入了沉默之中，沉默的我很想在那邊畫(huà)圈圈。                                                                                                             “看你這樣也不像是要看電視，g脆洗洗回去睡了吧！”                                                                                                             李澈敲著鍵盤(pán)，在那“噼噼啪啪”的敲擊聲之中響起的時(shí)候聽(tīng)上去特別的清晰，但是聽(tīng)到他那一句“洗洗睡了”這種話(huà)的時(shí)候，我就覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)菊花一緊的感覺(jué)。                                                                                                             要知道這種話(huà)可是有引申含義的，在那個(gè)電視電腦娛樂(lè)節(jié)目不盛行的年代，流行的就是“洗洗睡了”之后的活動(dòng)，一個(gè)一個(gè)都是光榮的mama啊光榮mama。                                                                                                             要不是看在某個(gè)人醉心在炒gu這項(xiàng)賭博上，我會(huì)這么的安分么？                                                                                                             “唔，還早吧……”我撓頭，這兩天對(duì)于“睡覺(jué)”這個(gè)詞，姐有點(diǎn)還是覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)心理y影的。                                                                                                             “那好，咱們聊聊?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈像是早就已經(jīng)知道我會(huì)是這么一個(gè)回答，很自然而然地把擱在膝蓋上的筆記本電腦往著茶幾上一放。                                                                                                             聊天，成，總b那“洗洗睡了”來(lái)的安全得多。                                                                                                             我想了想之后點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭，聊吧聊吧，聊點(diǎn)八卦一類(lèi)的也不錯(cuò)，至少可以消化一下剛吃下去沒(méi)多久的飯食。                                                                                                             “今天你出去了？”李澈開(kāi)口問(wèn)。                                                                                                             “恩?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我點(diǎn)頭，我出去并不算是一件很不正常的事情，之前不過(guò)都是出去上班，今天是出去逛街而已。                                                                                                             “還去逛街了？”李澈接著問(wèn)。                                                                                                             “你怎么知道？”                                                                                                             我有點(diǎn)后知后覺(jué)地問(wèn)著，這家伙不會(huì)在房間里面裝了針孔攝影機(jī)一類(lèi)吧，話(huà)說(shuō)寂寞久了的男人的確有可能會(huì)有一些亂七八糟的嗜好，這一點(diǎn)誰(shuí)都不保準(zhǔn)。                                                                                                             這么一想之后，我覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)芒刺在背如坐針氈的味道，覺(jué)得自己身后膩出了一身的薄汗，我條件反s一樣地m了m自己的鼻子，上面也有了一層薄汗。                                                                                                             好吧，我被自己的想法給嚇到了。                                                                                                             “你東西都已經(jīng)打包好了，長(zhǎng)眼的人都看見(jiàn)了?！崩畛旱穆曇魩Я它c(diǎn)冷然。                                                                                                             “啊，你看見(jiàn)了啊?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我算是了然了，今天這家伙到底是為了什么開(kāi)始反常了，大概就是看到了我收拾了一個(gè)箱子，里面裝的都是過(guò)兩天回家要帶走的東西。                                                                                                             “啊，你看見(jiàn)了啊……”李澈重復(fù)我剛剛說(shuō)的話(huà)，語(yǔ)調(diào)yyan怪氣的，聽(tīng)著感覺(jué)特別的滲人，他的眉頭微微皺著，“你還指望著我還沒(méi)瞧見(jiàn)？”                                                                                                             那么一大箱子扔在墻角，這都要是沒(méi)瞧見(jiàn)的話(huà)，不是睜眼瞎子么！我在心底嘀咕了一聲，表示還是沒(méi)有膽量把這句話(huà)說(shuō)出口。                                                                                                             瞧見(jiàn)就瞧見(jiàn)唄，反正里頭也沒(méi)有什么不可告人的東西。                                                                                                             “打算要走？”                                                                                                             我看了看李澈的臉se，他的表情微微有些難看，雖然不想承認(rèn)，但是我還是點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭，日子都已經(jīng)定下來(lái)了，不走不行。                                                                                                             “你居然還敢點(diǎn)頭，你當(dāng)我是si人呢？！”                                                                                                             李澈怒不可遏。                                                                                                             我愕然，我回家和他是si人和活人有神馬差別，就算是他真的是si人，我也不能拿到半毛錢(qián)不是？！                                                                                                             “話(huà)說(shuō)，真的打算這么聊下去？”                                                                                                             我覺(jué)得忐忑神曲在我耳邊不斷地重復(fù)著，覺(jué)得這話(huà)題這么聊下去的話(huà)，這火藥味會(huì)越來(lái)越重等會(huì)保不準(zhǔn)有人會(huì)掀桌而起，不是他掀起，大概就是我掀了吧！