“問題不在于小孩的份上吧，要真有了，又不是沒有辦法解決，重點還在于你要不要生的問題?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            林淼淼伸手戳我的腦袋，明顯事情不發(fā)生在她的身上，她是站著說話不腰疼。                                                                                                             的確也是的，現(xiàn)在醫(yī)學(xué)那么的發(fā)達，又不像是幾十年那樣，要是真的不幸了，一個小手術(shù)的時間就能ga0定。                                                                                                             但是……                                                                                                             光是想想，我都覺得有些殘忍。                                                                                                             “唔，我買了那么多次彩票，連五塊錢都沒有中過，應(yīng)該不會那么幸運吧？”我g笑著，要是真的不幸有了，我就切掉李澈的h瓜算了。                                                                                                             “你就抱著這種僥幸的心態(tài)一直下去算了！”林淼淼眼神之中無盡的鄙視，“g脆一直就等到你肚子大起來算了！”                                                                                                             “嘿，我說林淼淼你一天不虧我你就不安心是吧？”                                                                                                             我怨念無b，她就不能說點好聽點的話來安慰安慰我那焦躁的心情。                                                                                                             “我跟你說，這莫非定律說了，你越不想發(fā)生的事情它越會發(fā)生。你越擔心有吧，指不定哪天你就真的有了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            林淼淼喝了一口咖啡，表情高深莫測，十足神棍的樣子。                                                                                                             唔……                                                                                                             “難道你要讓我希望懷上不可么？”                                                                                                             我蒼涼遠目，這g本就怎么想都不對?。?nbsp;                                                                                                            “乖，別想了別想了……”林淼淼m了m我的頭，低聲安慰著。                                                                                                             之前說的那么的犀利，現(xiàn)在又要我什么都不想，哪有這么輕松的事情啊，我喝著自己手上的咖啡，決定把林淼淼說的都當做是廢話。                                                                                                             “怎么，你今天逛街了”                                                                                                             林淼淼伸手打開了我放在一邊的衣服袋子，里面是我剛剛買的一身新衣服。                                                                                                             “恩，剛逛了一圈，然后看到好就買了，現(xiàn)在的衣服你說價格那么高，但是還是一大堆人和不要錢一樣的哄搶！”                                                                                                             說起這衣服，我就覺得有點郁悶，剛剛逛了一趟商場，特別好的好貨買不起，一般x的好貨大家一起搶，而且還不是周末呢，到處都是人擠人的，逛了一圈都覺得有些膩煩。                                                                                                             然后就跑來了林淼淼幼兒園附近的，反正這個時候那群小毛孩子都在午睡的時候，還能夠拉人出來喝杯咖啡。                                                                                                             “那你不也是哄搶回來了么！”林淼淼笑我。                                                                                                             也對，姐也哄搶了一把，現(xiàn)在購物還好，要是等到圣誕或者新年的時候，那個時候才是真的人山人海，那個時候去購物才叫真的痛苦。                                                                                                             “刷他的卡？”林淼淼問我。                                                                                                             “怎么可能？！”我驚訝無b，對于林淼淼的話震撼無b，我怎么可能會去刷他的卡我又不是沒是錢。                                                                                                             “恩？”                                                                                                             林淼淼支著下巴。                                                                                                             “所以，你花銷還是你自己的？”                                                                                                             我點頭，我從來沒有花男人錢的習慣存在，當然，我爸的除外。在戀ai的時候，我也不曾真的想要把對方當做飯卡或者是提款機的想法存在，以前在沒戴錢包的情況下問；李澈借的錢我也不曾借錢不還啊。                                                                                                             正所謂有借有還再借不難，這樣想想，姐多純良啊。                                                                                                             “在你身上還真的沒有一點潛規(guī)則的感覺?！绷猪淀祰@了一口氣。                                                                                                             “原本就不算是潛規(guī)則啊?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我抗議，我哪里有被潛的樣子，g本一點都不像吧。                                                                                                             “喂，你給他買衣服？”                                                                                                             林淼淼接著看著我的衣服袋子，在另外一個袋子里面是一套男士西裝。                                                                                                             “怎么可能！”我怪叫，“那是我爸的衣服！”                                                                                                             不要那么敏感，不要覺得是男士的衣服就是給他買的，多冤枉啊，那家伙最不缺的就是西裝襯衫一類的，哪里還需要我去買。                                                                                                             “無緣無故買了那么多東西g嘛？”林淼淼翻過那一個又一個的袋子，咂舌，“你中五百萬了？”                                                                                                             “哪能！”                                                                                                             我嘆氣，要是中五百萬就好了，我就可以t驗一下富婆的感受了，哪用在那邊辛辛苦苦上班賺那么丁點的工資。                                                                                                             “還不是阿硯，那小鬼這個周末要結(jié)婚了。”                                                                                                             我皺了皺眉頭，阿硯是我的堂弟，全名叫做凌硯，b我小兩歲。                                                                                                             在他才丁點大的時候，我叔和嬸離了，是我nn一手帶大的，但是其中也有我媽一般的功勞，他從小和我膩歪在一起，我學(xué)會自個吃飯的時候，他只會管我媽喊媽，我老娘就得一口一口喂著他吃飯。                                                                                                             從幼兒園，小學(xué)，初中，高中一路過來，這小子就像是個跟p蟲一樣一路跟上來，直到大學(xué)沒有靠上我在的z大他才沒有跟上來。                                                                                                             但是這一轉(zhuǎn)眼的，這混蛋居然b我這個當jiejie先結(jié)婚了，可想而知，這次回去免不得被親戚一頓念了。                                                                                                             果然白云蒼狗，一下子那個曾經(jīng)跟在我pgu后頭的小鬼都要結(jié)婚了，而姐我還沒找到良人，總覺得有點諷刺的味道……                                                                                                             林淼淼也皺了皺眉，相信的此時此刻她的感覺是和我差不多的，她看了看手表，站起了身。                                                                                                             “我得回去了，那群小p孩們也差不多該醒了。”                                                                                                             “下次見。”                                                                                                             我點頭，看著林淼淼推開星巴克的門，然后出去，接著穿過馬路漸漸地走遠，突然地，只覺得好像很閑的人，只有我一個。                                                                                                             李澈當然不像是我，停擺了工作之后游手好閑，他勤奮的讓我都覺得有些丟臉，但是轉(zhuǎn)念一想，我有一點b他好，我絕對不會過勞si。                                                                                                             才回來沒多久，剛給自己倒了一杯水喝的時候，就有人按了門鈴。                                                                                                             這個時候，誰會來這里？該不會是李澈的爸媽吧？                                                                                                             背后總隱約有點發(fā)涼，我想了想，也不知道該應(yīng)聲還是應(yīng)該裝作這個家里面沒有人，但是在糾結(jié)了半天之后，我決定還是去門口透過那貓眼看看。                                                                                                             透過那貓眼一看，我倒是淡定了，因為來人熟的狠。                                                                                                             我舒了一口氣，然后把門給打開了。                                                                                                             “李澈現(xiàn)在不在家，有事的話不如等晚上他回來？”我臉上帶著笑，看著站在房門外的人，突然覺得自己這種姿態(tài)還有點nv主人的味道。                                                                                                             屋外站著我那不知道前幾任的男友，而我站在一個不算是現(xiàn)男友的屋子里面擺著nv主人的姿態(tài)，瞧這苦b的人生。                                                                                                             “我不找他，我找你?！苯U看著我，一字一頓。                                                                                                             聽著他這說辭，我怎么就覺得我像是欠了他錢不還還帶跑路的味道。                                                                                                             “好。”                                                                                                             我點頭，然后退開了身，讓他進門來。                                                                                                             “要喝茶嗎？”                                                                                                             我看著靳騏在客廳的沙發(fā)上坐下，很是順口地問著。                                                                                                             靳騏微微皺了皺眉。                                                                                                             “給我一杯水吧！”                                                                                                             我進了廚房去給他倒水，端了水出來的時候，他依舊坐在沙發(fā)上，維持的是和剛剛差不多的動作，有點發(fā)呆的樣子。                                                                                                             我把水遞過去，他接了過去，端在手心，沒有要喝的感覺，等到后來的時候。                                                                                                             “有事么？”                                                                                                             我坐在另外一邊的沙發(fā)上，看著靳騏。                                                                                                             他是特地來的吧，我想，明知道今天不是周末，李澈不可能會在家，挑這種時間點上門來要說是找李澈，別說他了，連我都不相信這個借口。                                                                                                             當然的，我也不是欣賞他的直白，只是這不拐彎抹角讓我覺得不需要多費思量也挺好的。論玩心思論玩手段，我都不是他們兩個的對手，g心斗角不是咱這種小白型號的人該做的事情。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”                                                                                                             靳騏清了清嗓子開口。                                                                                                             “你是不是在報復(fù)我？”靳騏問我，表情嚴肅，聲音更加嚴肅。                                                                                                             我默然。                                                                                                             他自我感覺似乎太良好了，良好到我很想打擊的一下沖動。                                                                                                             “唉，這都多少年了，我談的男人次數(shù)又不是只有一次兩次，要報復(fù)早報復(fù)完了，哪能現(xiàn)在才來報復(fù)……”                                                                                                             我揚高了聲調(diào)，也不知道是不是有心，我總覺得我在說這話的時候，像是帶了點嘲諷的味道。                                                                                                             好吧，我是真的帶了嘲諷的意味，很明顯的，靳騏也聽出來了，他的臉se黑了。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你就非要那么和我說話不可么？”                                                                                                             靳騏問著，聲音透著點痛苦。                                                                                                             我想他真的不懂得什么叫做痛苦，因為他真的沒有痛苦過，沒有t會過那種心里面空蕩一片的味道。                                                                                                             他可以光鮮亮麗，頂著海g的頭銜，他可以身價百倍，頂著一個繼承人的身份，他可以身邊美nv如云……                                                                                                             他從來都不曾真正嘗到過那種痛苦的味道。                                                                                                             第三十九章                                                                                                             我自認為我說話還是挺得t的，要是真的不得t，剛剛那一杯水不是塞到他的手上而是直接潑他臉上了。                                                                                                             所以，我的容忍限度還是挺大的。                                                                                                             “你別想太多，我一直挺嘴欠的，這一點，認識的人都知道?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我抓了抓頭發(fā)，我一向如此，按照文雅和依依的話，我說話時不時會在別人都沒有意識到時候語出驚人，這個我也沒有什么辦法，一切都是要淡定啊。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你是不是覺得我特別討厭？”                                                                                                             靳騏問。                                                                                                             真不容易，這哥們終于看出這點端倪來了。                                                                                                             “討厭吧，也算不上?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我說，反正最討厭的時候已經(jīng)過去了，現(xiàn)在，算不上特別討厭，但是也絕對不算是對他還有其他的好感。                                                                                                             雖然人都有點賤骨心理，可那么多年過去了還指望著和這個男人舊情復(fù)燃，或者那種回首過來前程盡忘，或者說在拋棄多年之后回過頭來隨隨便便來一句“對不起”，然后nv主就會原諒，來個he結(jié)尾的劇情小說看著是覺得不錯，但是這種事情放在自己身上的時候，我覺得那種大方的原諒，然后破鏡重圓的故事是屬于童話。                                                                                                             “反正我們之間也早就已經(jīng)成了那過去式了?！蔽覠ob淡定，“而且天涯上的姐妹們也說了，誰沒在年輕的時候遇上那一兩個渣男過?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            在靳騏走的時候，有很長一段時間，我無法淡定，成為文雅之后經(jīng)常會在各大網(wǎng)站上轉(zhuǎn)悠的孩子，灌貼，留言，置頂這些事情都g過，后來在別人的經(jīng)歷之中尋求到了平衡，至少我遇上的人不是什么咆哮教主或者有自nve或者nve人。                                                                                                             誰沒在年輕的時候遇上那一輛渣男或是jp，神馬都是浮云啊，這就是素未謀面的論壇姐妹們給的最好定論。                                                                                                             所以，姐也只是運氣不好，在青春里面遇上了一個渣男。                                                                                                             曾經(jīng)何時，有那么一個渣男，他只騙了一陣子，騙了se。                                                                                                             曾經(jīng)何時，有那么一個渣男，他騙了一輩子，騙財騙se又騙情。                                                                                                             我挺幸運的，遇上的渣男，除了感情以外，似乎什么都沒有得到，當然的，我除了感情以外，也什么都沒有失去。                                                                                                             靳騏的臉se又黑了，大約我剛剛說的那句話又讓他覺得不爽了吧，但是對不起，在我的概念里面，他的確是一個渣男不錯。                                                                                                             “那么多年了，你不一定還喜歡著我，當然的，也不可能會ai我一類的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我支著下巴，看著靳騏，很多話從見面的時候我就一直很想說了，但是一直因為估計一些原因所以才沒有開口，但是今天他話都說到這個份上了，我要是還什么都不說，這看上去就像是被人一直踩在腳下什么都說不出口呢。                                                                                                             “要是這么一來，你還說你還喜歡我、還ai你，這臺詞聽上去多矯情！”我笑，當然的，靳騏也沒有這么說過，要是他這么說了之后，我才真的有點受不了。                                                                                                             “當然的，也許如果你真的說喜歡我，還ai我，但是我們不得不承認，我們中間空窗了那么多年是事實，你還喜歡的可能還是當年大學(xué)沒有畢業(yè)的我?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            就像是我一樣，如果現(xiàn)在我還說我喜歡著靳騏，我絕對喜歡的還是在我印象之中的那個靳騏，那個還沒有大學(xué)畢業(yè)會陪著我一起瘋一起鬧的那個靳騏，而不是現(xiàn)在的這個靳騏，現(xiàn)在這個靳騏，除了那一張臉，剩下的都陌生的可怕。                                                                                                             他不了解現(xiàn)在的我，不了解現(xiàn)在的我是多么的粗俗，當然我也不了解現(xiàn)在的他。                                                                                                             “阿墨，我不是……”                                                                                                             靳騏想要開口解釋，但是在我一個眼神的阻止下，他又沉默了。                                                                                                             “別說你不是，你敢打包票說你還覺得我依舊是那個時候的凌墨？”我打斷靳騏要說話，這種話說出來我都覺得有點不好意思。                                                                                                             “你覺得難以忘懷，是因為我現(xiàn)在和你表哥李澈在一起吧？”