她也就敢在靳騏不在場(chǎng)的時(shí)候?qū)ξ胰氯铝?，靳騏在的時(shí)候，她就算再不爽也得隱忍著我。                                                                                                             就像是現(xiàn)在，靳騏感冒了，在屋子里頭睡著，她答應(yīng)留下來吃過晚飯?jiān)僮?，所以也就和我一起呆在客廳里面，即便是不爽，聲音還是壓低了很多。                                                                                                             “喂，喝那么多咖啡，小心胃會(huì)壞掉！”她依舊鼓著一張臉，但是語氣放軟了許多，“下次改喝一下紅茶吧，據(jù)說不傷胃，不過最好還是喝點(diǎn)牛n一類的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我喝咖啡的動(dòng)作稍微頓了頓，喝完手上的咖啡，然后把杯子遞給她。                                                                                                             “那幫我泡一杯紅茶吧。”                                                                                                             我突然覺得自己有點(diǎn)無恥。                                                                                                             她睜大了眼睛瞪著我，像是在看一個(gè)怪物一樣。                                                                                                             “謝謝?！蔽已a(bǔ)上一句。                                                                                                             她有點(diǎn)無可奈何，伸手拿過了杯子，然后往著廚房而去，走到廚房附近的時(shí)候她又回過了頭朝著我揮著拳頭。                                                                                                             她一點(diǎn)也不掩飾自己現(xiàn)在的心情。                                                                                                             她來這邊有幾次，每次來都會(huì)做一桌好吃的，我得承認(rèn)，她的長相一般，但是手藝真的很好，據(jù)說家里面是開小飯館的，估計(jì)也是這么鍛煉下來的。                                                                                                             想到她做的菜，我有點(diǎn)開始期待晚上會(huì)是怎么樣的菜se了。                                                                                                             在客廳里面等了好一會(huì)也不見她出來，我把電腦往著客廳茶幾上一擺，然后往著廚房方向而去。                                                                                                             她站在廚房里面，沒有開燈，身上系著圍裙，從背影看上去特別的恬靜，有一種讓人想要從背后抱上去的沖動(dòng)。                                                                                                             那種畫面……一定很溫馨。                                                                                                             不由得，我想起了那一天見到靳騏和她在廚房間里面接吻的場(chǎng)景，x口總覺得有點(diǎn)悶悶的。                                                                                                             “喂，泡杯紅茶而已，動(dòng)作這么慢？”                                                                                                             我出聲問著，帶了點(diǎn)惡聲惡氣，連我自己都不清楚自己為什么會(huì)用這樣的語氣對(duì)她說話。                                                                                                             “叮咚?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            烤箱發(fā)出很愉悅的聲音。                                                                                                             她臉上的表情也很愉悅，帶著隔熱手套開了烤箱，然后取出烤盤，上面擺著金hse的小點(diǎn)心。                                                                                                             “李澈李澈，今天便宜你了！”                                                                                                             她沖著我笑，然后拿了夾子把那外表金hsu脆的小點(diǎn)心夾到盤子里面遞給我，自己則是在那邊泡著紅茶。                                                                                                             不知道為什么，當(dāng)我的名字從她嘴里面喊出來的時(shí)候我總覺得x口滿滿的暖暖的。                                                                                                             她端了紅茶出來，遞給我一杯，然后伸手去拿放在茶幾上的小盤子上的小點(diǎn)心。                                                                                                             “那是什么玩意？”我問。                                                                                                             “相思餅，我以前從一本書上看到的，然后在家嘗試做過了，放心我沒有你那么惡毒所以沒放毒藥?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            她白我一眼，整個(gè)人像是貓一樣蜷在那單人沙發(fā)上一邊喝著紅茶，一邊吃著小點(diǎn)心。                                                                                                             相思餅，也就是這種長不大的人才會(huì)喜歡的東西。                                                                                                             我這樣想著，但是卻是去拿那所謂的相思病。                                                                                                             外面的是面粉，沾了蛋y放了細(xì)鹽，不咸，里面裹了一顆相思梅，有點(diǎn)點(diǎn)的甜，有點(diǎn)點(diǎn)的酸。                                                                                                             明明是很怪異的口感，但是卻很符合這餅的名稱。                                                                                                             也許這就是相思的味道，我想。                                                                                                             靳騏醒來的時(shí)候見到的就是我和凌墨兩個(gè)人窩在客廳里面一邊喝著紅茶，一邊吃著相思餅，各g各的。                                                                                                             我有報(bào)告要寫，而她則是看著她的電視。                                                                                                             晚上的時(shí)候我如愿以償?shù)匾伙柨诟Ｖ畒u，靳騏則是送凌墨到車站，等到他回來的時(shí)候，披頭蓋臉的就是一句問話。                                                                                                             “哥，你喜歡阿墨？”                                                                                                             我原本想要回自己房間，但是在聽到他這句問話之后，開門的動(dòng)作頓了頓。                                                                                                             “誰說的？”                                                                                                             我回頭看著靳騏。                                                                                                             “我自己看出來?！苯U回答我。                                                                                                             我從來不知道原來我這個(gè)表弟看事物也挺主觀的。                                                                                                             “你錯(cuò)覺了?！蔽一卮?，“還有，你打算什么時(shí)候跟她說你要準(zhǔn)備出國的事情？”                                                                                                             靳騏的表情瞬間變得有些僵y。                                                                                                             “你該不會(huì)不打算跟她說吧？”我問。                                                                                                             靳騏沒有回答我，或許那個(gè)時(shí)候他是默認(rèn)了。                                                                                                             有什么能夠b不告而別更讓人印象深刻的，因?yàn)閺膩矶嫉貌坏揭粋€(gè)具t的答案，所以才會(huì)記得很牢。                                                                                                             就像是凌墨那樣。                                                                                                             我真的沒有想到靳騏真的會(huì)不告而別，這一招雖然有點(diǎn)卑劣，但是看到她會(huì)哭的那么痛苦的時(shí)候，我覺得這一招還是很高明的，因?yàn)閚v人可能不會(huì)記得誰對(duì)她最好，但是一定會(huì)記得讓她哭的最慘的男人。                                                                                                             就像是靳騏那樣的男人。                                                                                                             我傻傻地跟著凌墨回到了老家，第一次買冰欺凌給nv孩，而且還是一個(gè)丟臉丟到家的nv人。                                                                                                             早知道就應(yīng)該放任不管的，我看著那紅著鼻子紅著眼睛像是一只兔子一樣的nv人，忍不住嘆氣。                                                                                                             nv人失戀都是這么的驚天動(dòng)地么，我想，如果那一天我真的喜歡上一個(gè)nv人的話，我想，我一定不會(huì)讓她哭的那么慘的，多揪心啊，多丟人啊……                                                                                                             凌墨恢復(fù)的很快，或者也g本就沒有恢復(fù)，因?yàn)槲液苌僭谒樕显倏吹侥菦]心沒肺的笑了，有時(shí)候想想，還真的挺還念的，就算是她鼓著腮幫子像是一個(gè)包子一樣對(duì)著我直嚷嚷“你很討厭”這模樣也是可ai至極的。                                                                                                             現(xiàn)在的她對(duì)所有的人都很客套，客套的像是和人劃開了距離一樣。                                                                                                             有時(shí)候遇上她的時(shí)候，不經(jīng)意的還能從她眼神之中發(fā)現(xiàn)一種空洞。                                                                                                             阿騏走了，順帶地把她的活力也給帶走了。                                                                                                             強(qiáng)顏歡笑，我只能這么形容她。                                                                                                             大四畢業(yè)的時(shí)候，班長回了老家去發(fā)展，我開車送他去機(jī)場(chǎng)，很多東西他已經(jīng)用快遞打包回家了，所有走的時(shí)候東西并不多。                                                                                                             原本我想留班長在這個(gè)城市幫我的，我用父母給的創(chuàng)業(yè)基金開了一間公司，但是他執(zhí)意要走，據(jù)說遠(yuǎn)方有一個(gè)等著他的姑娘，他讓她等了整整四年，他準(zhǔn)備回去，即便最后不能在一起也想要陪著他。                                                                                                             在機(jī)場(chǎng)，班長和我聊了好一會(huì)，從剛?cè)雽W(xué)說到了現(xiàn)在畢業(yè)，總覺得明明剛?cè)氪髮W(xué)沒多久，現(xiàn)在卻是畢業(yè)分離了。                                                                                                             “李澈啊，那nv生好嗎？”班長問我。                                                                                                             “什么nv生？”我有些不解。                                                                                                             “當(dāng)然是你心理面的那個(gè)人?！卑嚅L拍著我的肩膀，很哥倆好的模樣，“那nv生不是在你心底住了好幾年了么？”                                                                                                             “你個(gè)悶sao，那么多nv生主動(dòng)追你你都不要，不就是為了你心底的那個(gè)姑娘么?！卑嚅L砸吧了兩聲道，“都畢業(yè)了，難道就還沒有點(diǎn)動(dòng)靜？”                                                                                                             “沒有?！蔽覔u頭，我心底哪有什么喜歡的人，如果有的話……                                                                                                             我停下了原本想要說的話，我的腦海之中想起的時(shí)候那個(gè)時(shí)候，凌墨站在球場(chǎng)邊，手上抱著書，瞪大了眼睛努力想要看清人的樣子，有點(diǎn)ga0笑，有點(diǎn)……                                                                                                             班長了然地拍了拍我的肩膀，一副“兄弟我是過來人”的模樣。                                                                                                             我頓悟，突然有點(diǎn)想要笑出聲的味道。                                                                                                             當(dāng)年球場(chǎng)周圍圍了那么多的nv生，我一眼只看到了她，或者這早已經(jīng)是注定。                                                                                                             那只包子……                                                                                                             那只站在球場(chǎng)邊緣的包子，那只在廚房的包子，還有那站在櫻花樹下抬頭看著櫻花飛舞的包子，畫面一下變得特別的清晰。                                                                                                             現(xiàn)在我和班長他們的聯(lián)系已經(jīng)不斷，兩年前班長結(jié)了婚，對(duì)象就是那等了四年的姑娘，年底的時(shí)候，班長夫人給他添了個(gè)大胖小子。                                                                                                             滿月的時(shí)候，那滿月酒擺的夠大的，把當(dāng)年玩的b較好的人全給請(qǐng)了，允許攜伴參加，但是到場(chǎng)的，大概只有我一個(gè)沒帶伴的。                                                                                                             “還沒上手呢？”一班老同學(xué)虧我。                                                                                                             “不急，慢慢來好了?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我說，伸手m著班長家的小子，那軟軟的手感很好，很像包子。                                                                                                             網(wǎng)撒的大了點(diǎn)，所以收網(wǎng)的時(shí)候不能c之過急，只能慢慢來，不然的話，是會(huì)被狡猾的對(duì)手逃掉的。                                                                                                             我把手上的煙掐掉，轉(zhuǎn)身回了房間，順帶地把落地窗給關(guān)上了，夜晚風(fēng)大，尤其是這種臨江邊。                                                                                                             凌墨抱著大半條被子在我的床上睡的正熟，她習(xí)慣側(cè)著睡，喜歡抱著被子，彎的像是一只蝦米一樣。                                                                                                             到底是多沒安全感啊，我伸手去捏的她的臉，暖暖rr的，很包子的感覺。                                                                                                             她咕噥了一聲，si命往著被子里面鉆，整個(gè)人越縮越起勁。                                                                                                             我扯開被子，吻上她的唇，在她似醒非醒的時(shí)候推高了她的睡衣，扯下了唯一的遮蔽物，攻城略地。                                                                                                             “李澈，你就那么想拼腎么……”                                                                                                             她有些含糊不清，咕噥著，也不知道是疼還是在埋怨。                                                                                                             網(wǎng)都已經(jīng)起收了，我怎么可能容許她從我手指縫里面溜掉，今天靳騏來雖然是有點(diǎn)意外，我倒覺得挺好的，這樣一來，她也可以絕了念想，阿騏也可以絕了念想。                                                                                                             “凌墨你記住，那么多年的感情，不是你幾天就可以還清的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我咬她的耳垂，在她耳邊一次又一次地重復(fù)著。她被我咬的疼了，在那邊嚷著疼，我改咬她的肩膀，像是烙印一樣留下一個(gè)又一個(gè)的印子。                                                                                                             她只有疼才會(huì)記得更加牢固一些。                                                                                                             “要是你敢跑，我還知道你的老巢！”                                                                                                             我放狠話，雖然不知道她家到底在哪里，但是那小鎮(zhèn)就那么點(diǎn)大小，隨便抓個(gè)人問問也能問出個(gè)結(jié)果來。                                                                                                             “李澈！”                                                                                                             她終于像是清醒一樣地尖叫出聲。                                                                                                             “所以放下你的小心思，你躲不過的?！蔽艺f。                                                                                                             我看上的人，怎么可能會(huì)放過的。我從小習(xí)慣商場(chǎng)上的事情，自己又在商場(chǎng)上打拼了那么多年，她那點(diǎn)小心思g本就不夠瞧的。                                                                                                             做人要懂得藏拙，可她偏偏不懂，但是我也挺ai她的小心思，每次被猜中之后看到她鼓著一張臉或者詫異的樣子就覺得挺可ai的。                                                                                                             她的手指緊緊地扣著我的手臂，指甲像是要陷進(jìn)去一樣，她慌了，像是一直面對(duì)了危險(xiǎn)的小動(dòng)物一樣，無力但是偏偏想要閃躲。                                                                                                             “就不能放過我么，我陪你一段時(shí)間，從此之后我和你們兩個(gè)再也沒有瓜葛?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            她問。                                                                                                             “老娘再也不想和你們有半毛錢的關(guān)系了！”她尖叫出聲。                                                                                                             “然后，讓你走掉，隨便找個(gè)順眼的男人結(jié)婚？”我基本上都能夠猜到她的打算，“你想得美?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我打斷她的臆想，世界上哪有那么便宜的事情。                                                                                                             “你和阿騏之間有沒有半毛錢的關(guān)系我不管，反正你和我之間的關(guān)系，很復(fù)雜，你做人不是一向很認(rèn)命么，那么不妨認(rèn)命一次又如何？”                                                                                                             我笑。                                                                                                             她和靳騏的糾葛可以算，和我的糾葛，她這輩子都別想。                                                                                                             我喜歡她，從很早的時(shí)候就開始喜歡。                                                                                                             但是我想，在她喜歡上我之前，我不會(huì)告訴她這一點(diǎn)，她需要自己學(xué)會(huì)眼睛去看。                                                                                                             我想她如果是一塊泥巴就好了，這樣，我會(huì)塑造出一個(gè)永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)傷心的她。                                                                                                             正文 第三十八章                                                                                                             我覺得事態(tài)不能再這么發(fā)展下去了，再這么是下去，不管有多少藥，早晚也都是得中那22%的機(jī)會(huì)的。                                                                                                             光是想想，我就覺得可怕。                                                                                                             “我也覺得可怕?！绷猪淀蒂澩攸c(diǎn)頭。                                                                                                             我瞅著林淼淼，突然覺得這個(gè)姐們也是挺有血x的，也不枉我請(qǐng)她喝了一杯星巴克的咖啡，她的反應(yīng)絕對(duì)對(duì)得起這價(jià)位。                                                                                                             “要真有了，生出來之后千萬別送我那邊的幼兒園，我可不想面對(duì)你的小孩，光是想想，我都覺得蛋疼……”                                                                                                             林淼淼啜了一口咖啡之后又開了口。                                                                                                             收回前言，這家伙g本就對(duì)不起這價(jià)位，這錢打水漂至少還有個(gè)聲響，丟林淼淼身上絕對(duì)一點(diǎn)聲響都沒有。